I am now getting ready for the second round of clomid. I have just finished the Provera (which wasn't as bad this time as last time) a few days ago. I still had sometimes where I couldn't control my emotions but I think I am getting a hang on controlling them better. I thought it was going to be just as bad as last time but I lucked out.
I will be starting the clomid here soon in a few days. I hope the 2nd round of clomid will do the trick so I don't have to worry about going to a specialist...but I have a feeling that I will be going anyways. I guess it just one of the things that I will have to do to have kids.
Anyways, in 3 weeks I go in for the blood testing. I will not lie...I am very worry. I don't really want my body getting worst. I've been working hard for 3 years to make it healthier and I just beginning to understand it too along with nutrition too.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Monday, December 17, 2012
Freelings of Late
From my last post...things are not looking good for my health or getting pregnant. I have a lot of emotions going through me. I know there is a lot that I have to do health-wise. But there is so much more to it. I have a lot of worries going through my head. I know I shouldn't really worry or stress about it but there's just no way that I can't worry about. Anyways, here is a list of the things that are on my mind ALWAYS:
1) This whole specialist thing: I worry about this whole specialist thing because I was able to get pregnant when I wasn't so health...but healthier than I was about 3 years ago. I am so confused. Yes it's been a year since I have gotten pregnant but there may be something that I did there that I am not doing and I've thought about it and the only thing that I was doing than that I am not doing now is I am not taking the metformin...I am starting to wonder if I really should of came off that medicine now.
2) Insurance: So Logan thought that the insurance would cover most of the money that will involved the treatment but it covers nothing. So now I have to look into getting a secondary insurance or waiting until we have insurance from Logan's new working place (he was given the ok to go get a part-time job) and seeing if they cover anything. If not than we will have to talk to the doctor's office (which ever one I end up going to) about not being on insurance and seeing if they will reduce the price for us in a way. If not we will have to wait until we can save up enough money that we could get started on it.
3) Money: I know for a fact that this whole specialist thing isn't cheap. We don't have a lot of money saved up due to loans being payed off...mostly my school loans. Due to this...we may just have to wait a few months before I can actually get in. It's kind of depressing that I have to wait for so long but I'm hoping it will work out in the end.
4) I know this sounds mean and all but I HATE the fact that people keep telling me (or other woman) that I (we) should not stress over it and it will happen or just forget about it and it will happen! Do they even know the pain woman go through who have infertility problems. Don't get me wrong...I am family members who tell me this and I don't have this feeling towards them...it's the people that I don't even know who tell me something like this when they think they know everything about me and my life. Oh! Something else that bugs me...I have talked to a lot of mom's out there and most of them keep asking me if I really want the responsible of rising children! How dare them! I've dreamed of having my own children and rising them to be the greatest that they can be. It's one of my dreams that I have waited so long for to be fulfilled.
Overall, I just hope that there is nothing else wrong with me...I think I've had enough bad news for the year...I want to start over and get better results. But life can throw so many curve balls that it's not funny at all. I am hoping that we will be lucky enough to get pregnant next year with out any trouble and what not.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Unexpected Doctor Visit
Today I was called into my doctors office. Which to most people means something bad...in this case, I would have to say the same thing.
A few weeks ago I was having really bad insomnia for a few weeks, so I decided to have the doctor's office order some blood test for my thyroid to see what was going on. That was about 2 weeks ago. I didn't hear from her last week either about the test. Also, the clomid didn't work what-so-ever this round. I didn't even end up having a period (sorry for tmi). So early this week I called in and left my doctor with the report about the clomid and some questions. I figured this week she would call me back because she been really busy recently.
Well, I was right about getting called back. I was told to come in at 12:30 because my doctor wanted to talk to me face to face about everything that was going on. I got to the doctors and waited a little bit due to the fact that I wasn't really schedule to have an appointment today and it was just suppose to be a quick visit. While I was waiting, I was wondering what I would do if I had to be sent to a specialist or even if we can afford one. Well, as soon as I got in with her, she told me some pretty bad news. Let me remind you that I have a hypothyroidism...which means that it doesn't produce enough to support the body. Well, it turns out that it at the lowest level for the test but the other two where perfect. My doctor was so confused.
So we went over everything after I started the Provera and Clomid and she was still confused with everything. She told me that this doesn't usually happens. We than talked about what has been happening in my life to see if there was something there that caused it but I couldn't really think of one. She talked about how I am looking so much better overall and my hormones are going back to normal from this. And what's really weird us out is the fact that I have lost 10 lbs in the last 2 months instead of gaining it back.
What she decided to do was put me back on the Provera to start my cycle and up the dosage of my Clomid to 100mg to see if this helps. In a little over a month I have to go get some more blood test done to see how my body is doing. If it's the same or worst she is going to sent me to a specialist. She doesn't want to wait for another year because we have been trying for so long now. But if they are a little better or great than she will try another round of clomid (that's if I start the next cycle on my own). If not...off to the specialist I go. My doctor thinks that there may be another problems somewhere that we have not discover yet but the only way of know that is if I go. So I'm guessing that in the next 3 months I will be see one no matter what (unless I get pregnant).
I keep wondering why I've been having such a hard time with this and so many other things this year. I've had been given trials to me through out my life but this year has to be the most packed full of them. I just guess I still have a lot of rough edges that need polish off better or something like that. I just hope that I am about to go through all this with a smile or just lots of hope.
A few weeks ago I was having really bad insomnia for a few weeks, so I decided to have the doctor's office order some blood test for my thyroid to see what was going on. That was about 2 weeks ago. I didn't hear from her last week either about the test. Also, the clomid didn't work what-so-ever this round. I didn't even end up having a period (sorry for tmi). So early this week I called in and left my doctor with the report about the clomid and some questions. I figured this week she would call me back because she been really busy recently.
Well, I was right about getting called back. I was told to come in at 12:30 because my doctor wanted to talk to me face to face about everything that was going on. I got to the doctors and waited a little bit due to the fact that I wasn't really schedule to have an appointment today and it was just suppose to be a quick visit. While I was waiting, I was wondering what I would do if I had to be sent to a specialist or even if we can afford one. Well, as soon as I got in with her, she told me some pretty bad news. Let me remind you that I have a hypothyroidism...which means that it doesn't produce enough to support the body. Well, it turns out that it at the lowest level for the test but the other two where perfect. My doctor was so confused.
So we went over everything after I started the Provera and Clomid and she was still confused with everything. She told me that this doesn't usually happens. We than talked about what has been happening in my life to see if there was something there that caused it but I couldn't really think of one. She talked about how I am looking so much better overall and my hormones are going back to normal from this. And what's really weird us out is the fact that I have lost 10 lbs in the last 2 months instead of gaining it back.
What she decided to do was put me back on the Provera to start my cycle and up the dosage of my Clomid to 100mg to see if this helps. In a little over a month I have to go get some more blood test done to see how my body is doing. If it's the same or worst she is going to sent me to a specialist. She doesn't want to wait for another year because we have been trying for so long now. But if they are a little better or great than she will try another round of clomid (that's if I start the next cycle on my own). If not...off to the specialist I go. My doctor thinks that there may be another problems somewhere that we have not discover yet but the only way of know that is if I go. So I'm guessing that in the next 3 months I will be see one no matter what (unless I get pregnant).
I keep wondering why I've been having such a hard time with this and so many other things this year. I've had been given trials to me through out my life but this year has to be the most packed full of them. I just guess I still have a lot of rough edges that need polish off better or something like that. I just hope that I am about to go through all this with a smile or just lots of hope.
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