Been So Long

Wow, I can't believe that life has been so busy and it's taken me this long to even write anything. The last time I wrote in here was in May. There has been so many things happening for us. Some not so good and some as been an adventure.

Let's see..at the end of May, we ended up adopting a dog so that Aeris would have someone to play with so I could get stuff done around the house instead of always playing with her. The dog we adopted is named Layla, she is a full bred german sheppard but the smaller bred. She is only a month older then Aeris is. She is very much like a guard dog. She doesn't play as much as Aeris does and she is always on guard even if she is laying down or if she is just watching me doing stuff. We got her from the Pocatello pound. She is very sweet and loves meeting new people now. Layla didn't really like Aeris at first but that's only because she just got fixed and was very sore. But now they are best friends!

June...nothing much happen. We was adjusting to having two dogs around the house and making sure that they got a long. We worked on the garden a lot. It is now finish. We laid the bricks for the walk way and it looks really nice now. I keep getting comments about it and how good it is. Oh...Cale, Allyssa and Bryson where also in town.

July...there was the fireworks. We actually had a family bbq at our house. We invited everyone from my side of the family over. Afterwards, we watched the fireworks at the soccer fields and then held our own show. It was a lot of fun. I got to spend a lot of time with Cale, Allyssa, and little Bryson. The weekend afterwards Oaklen had a birthday party. This time he had gotten one of those huge blown up watersides. It was a lot of fun. The week and a half later I found out that my grandma was in the hospital and no one knew she was there the for 4 days. She was there because she didn't keep up on her diagnosis. She spent the rest of the month there trying to get her body from breaking down.

August...My grandma's condition was then realize...it was much worst then what the doctors had thought. She needed to get a heart valve transplant because the diagnosis had caused so much calcification that the valve wasn't working the right way.  The heart doctor recommend that we sent my grandma to SLC for heart surgery or she would died within a month to 6 months. She decided to go for it and was transfer around for a while until after the surgery was performed. We call and checked up on her a lot. While this was going on, I ended up getting pregnant again but lost it without realizing that I had gotten pregnant until afterwards. In a way, I am thankful that it didn't happen like the last time.

September...on the 3rd we rushed down to SLC because we was told that my grandma was worst to the point that she was on life support. When we got there, we found out that she was doing really well. Hardly had her oxygen mask on. Let's just say, I was not happy at all with everything and the mix messages that we was getting. So we meet with the doctor and the case manager and decided that we wanted Grandma to come home asap. We then told my mom and her siblings what was really going on. After meeting with the doc and case manager, we went and talked to grandma for a while and my mom and uncle talked to her. We stay for a little bit longer before heading home. That Saturday night, she passed away. I spent a lot of the time helping my mom put the funeral together and putting together her life sketch as best as possible. The next saturday we held a graveside services for her and I gave her life sketch. I was happy she wasn't in any pain anymore but it hurt to see her go. Due to my grandma passing, we didn't do anything for our anniversary. The rest of the  month didn't have anything going on.

October...Shami turn 17 this year. She didn't really do anything for her birthday but we did get her a present. Followed soon afterwards was Brooke's 18th birthday. A week later I found Opa had to be rushed to the hospital early in the month  because he thought he had kidney stones. When in to surgery and had his gallbladder taken out along with some stones but the ones that where causing all the pain they couldn't get to. So Opa had to wear a bag while they flushed his liver and panaceas clean to remove the stone for about 3 weeks before they came out. The doctors then tested the stones. At the end of the month, we was told that Opa had liver cancer and it was spending to his panaceas pretty fast and there was nothing that they could do. So we spend as much time with Opa as were could.  On the 27th, Brooke and Grayson got married thru the courts so that he could be back in time for they wedding. It's was really weird reason but it had to be done. I ended up being one of the witnesses (Grayson father was the other one).

November...Korey flied back at the begin of the month. We was up at the house almost nightly. It was hard to see Opa getting ready to pass as the days went by. The first friday night, we went up on the hill to see him like we usually did when things took a turn for a worst. It hit me really hard, so hard that I didn't want to leave him. A lot of the my male cousins, uncles and Logan gave Opa a blessing. My own mother came up soon afterwards and took me out of the room after getting chewed out by Opa (it was pretty funny. That was the most that Opa talk that night). Soon afterwards, we went home. I was very much tired and had a lesson to finish to prepare for my primary class. After church the next day, Korey and Logan was acting strange until I figured out that Opa had passed around 3 and gotten a text from my dad about it. We then held his funeral the following Saturday. Korey got to tell half of Opa's life sketch. I had never cried so hard since I lost my great grandpa brown when I was 7 or 8. I still cry over the fact that Opa is no longer here but I know he is happy. The same day as the funeral, Mom had a Thanksgiving Dinner at her house because Grayson was heading out to Boot Camp and wasn't going to be here until around christmas then would be back until June. Thanksgiving Day was spend at Logan's Mom's house with all of Logan's siblings and nieces. It was a nice change of pace for us. Our cute little nieces were growing so fast and getting prettier by the day. We helped put up Barbara's (Logan's mom) christmas stuff. The next day we when back over and had our Christmas day with them and opened presents. From Katlin and Nathan, we ended up going out and eating dinner on them and Logan's Mom took all the siblings and couples to The Forgotten Carols (which by the way was Logan and my first time to see it). I told Logan that we should look into going ever year to it.

That is pretty much what has happen up to December. The only thing that has been done this month was putting up our christmas tree. This week is the Gilbert's Christmas Party and in another week will be Katlin's and Nathan's wedding anniversary along with Oma's birthday.


Well now you are back up to day. More to come soon.

Another Niece!

We got another little niece recently. Carolyn and Joseph had their baby on April 11.

Meet Rosalie Ellen De Luca

7lb 13oz and 20 1/2 inches

We wasn't able to go see the day that she was born due to being so busy at home building a garden. We did end up seeing her the 27th. We made a day trip to Ogden to see them all.  Sadly I wasn't able to hold her a lot because I just got done being sick and I would hate myself if I got her sick when she was so little but Logan got to hold her for a while. She mostly slept the whole time we was there. She got her looks from the De Luca Family but her hair is from her mom.

Here are the pictures that we took while we was there. She is such a cutie. I can't wait to see her again.

Treatment Update: 2 1/2 Weeks

So, it's been two and a half weeks since I saw Dr. Jonak. And the results are amazing! I so happy I decided to see her.

So just a little remind of what is my treatment is right now:

1. Castor oil and lavender oil with a heating pad (rice bag) for 30 minutes (I've been doing more just because it's just so calming and comfortable. I usually doing this on Saturday, Sunday and Monday nights while watching something.
2. I am eating the smoothie every other day due to two things: 1) well, it has beets in it...I don't think I need to so more about that. 2) I started to get really tired of having the same smoothie for lunch or dinner everyday.
3. I have cut out gluten and sugar from what I eat. The sugar thing is just the organic sugars. I have notice that it still makes my body haywire. I did the gluten due to having too much yeast in my body. 
4. I take emger-c with cream of tartar, c. silver, and grapefruit seed extract.
5. I am taking 3 different tincture blends under my tongue: 1) one for my adrenal glands, 2) one for the parasites in my body and 3) one for my lack of progesterone in my body.
6. Plus all the supplements that I've been taking along with my armor thyroid.

And the results:

I can testify that I now have more color in my face than before in my life. I have more energy so I do more thing around the house. I even did some weeding of the gardens in the front yard! (that is pretty big if you ask Logan.) I've lost 4 lbs since I started this treatment which has been really hard to lose anything before hand. I've not really workout at all. In fact, I probably worked out twice since I've seen her and that was aqua zumba whenever my nephew wasn't over. And to top that off, whenever I walk for more than 15 minutes it feels like I am burning so much fat! I sleep ten times better and I am sleeping on a schedule again! I go to bed before midnight too! My cravings...gone! I used to have huge cravings for salty or sweet things all the time due to the clomid and birth control I was on (not of my choice tho). My body isn't so swollen either! Especially my stomach area. I showed Logan last night how much it's gone down and he was impressed.

I can't wait to see all the results when I go back in to see Dr. Jonak again. I love that the fact that I can see the blood results with my own eyes so I can if it's work. I have 3 more weeks before I see her again. Maybe I'll get lucky and lose some more weight before than too. ^_^ I'll do another update in two weeks. I'll will post pictures of myself later one.

Making Another Decision

A lot of people know that I love my D.O. doctor and my new Gyn/OB doctor...but for some reason things just aren't connecting and working. I mean I do have an amazing gyn/ob doctor who put in the time to figure out what was really going on with my infertility problems and my d.o. who got me pregnant 6 months after I started to see her.

On top of that, I have done so much studying on PCOS, IR, Adrenal Fatigue, and Hypothyroidism (problems that are all hormonal based). I am getting so confused. I know food is my best medicine at this point but there are so many things saying this veggie is bad for your thyroid or fruits can be bad for your sugar levels. And to top it off, there are so many people in my family that are having babies. Yeah...try dealing with fertility problems when most of your siblings are expecting (who are married). That throws some very huge loops with your emotions. I even helped with my sister-in-laws baby shower which by the way I had a blast doing.

 So I decided on see a naturalpath doctor to see if I can more things figured out. I saw her Friday and let me tell you it was a great thing to go see her. By the way, her name is Dr. Karie Jonak. Anyways, let's say that it was amazing what she found out in 10 minutes.  There's a whole list full of stuff plus what I have already! Here is the list of things that she discover that was going on in my body.

• Borderline anemia (most likely due to lack of copper)
• 2 type of parasites
•  Yeast
• Bacteria
• Mold 
• Not enough enzymes 
• Metal toxin buildup
• Adrenal glands are shot (very badly too)
• Intestines are a little back up due to the lack of enzymes
• inflammation from pelvis up to my head

On the plus side, she commented on my white blood cells and uterus. She said that my white blood cells were amazing! And my uterus looks great even with all the hormonal problems I have. And while she was look at my blood and the map of my body (by blood) I got to see everything and understand why my body is doing what it is doing. I would say that I would send anyone to her.

Anyways, she give me a list full of stuff to do for a few things so I don't over whim myself with treatments. Here is what she is having me do right now until the next time on May 19th.

• Adrenal support tincture blend - take 10 drops under the tongue in the morning and through out the day whenever my body is about to crash...usually up until about 5:30 pm or it has me up until 1 in the morning.
• Sarsparilla formula tincture blend - this blend is just for my lack of progesterone in my body. It is from the sarsparilla root and is a lot easier on the than progesterone cream. I take 10 drops under the tongue 3 times a day. 
• Parasite Formula tincture blend - this one is for a the parasites in my body...take 10 drops under the tongue morning and night and keep it under my tongue for a minute. 
• Smoothie - this smoothie that I am to take daily has a beet, carrots, celery, strawberries to taste, lemon (peeled), 1/2 cup of papaya and 1 tbsp of papaya seeds. This is suppose to help with the borderline anemia, getting more enzymes in my body and digestive system. She told me to get the papaya from Mexico because the other ones have lots of GMOs in them.
• Castor oil package - I have to put this on my area where I have my ovaries and uterus at. It will help with the metal buildup in that area. What I do is take an old towel and soak it in castor oil with a few drops of lavender essential oil (helps with healing) put it in that area then wrap it with plastic wrap and put a hot rice bag on top of it. What this is suppose to do is help open up my tubes and get the cysts to go away. I guess I will see when I go back to Dr. Merrill for an ultrasound. 
• Emergen "C" package - I am suppose to combine it with cream of tartar, grapefruit seed oil, and sliverboitics. This is suppose to help with lots of stuff...to tell you the truth I forgot what it did but it does something that helps.

AS of Saturday afternoon, I have so much energy! I feel great and happy. Not really feeling sick or tired which I am loving! I've never had results this fast in any treatments! I am so happy. I have caught up on a lot of stuff and still catching up on things. I can even help Logan out more getting the garden ready to plant all the seeds we have. I have been trying to talk Logan to go in and see Dr. Jonak for his skin condition. I will see if I can get him to. I can't wait to see the end results of this now.

Another Nephew!

I just got another nephew and he looks so much like both of his parents. At first I though he looked more like Cale but the next day I got a picture and he looks like both of them now. Isn't it so funny how much a baby can change in 24 hours?

Anyways, his name is Bryson Blake Hiaring. He was born on March 28th. He was 7 lb 5 oz and 19 inches long.

Isn't my nephew so cute/handsome! I can't wait to see him in the summer! Congrats again Cale and Allyssa!

One Of Those Moments

(This post is just me ranting off some very heavy stress. If you don't want to know about it, go ahead and skip over this post.)

As many of you know, we have been having a very hard time getting pregnant due to my PCOS. Well, today I had one of THOSE moments. I heard about women who have babies and they are twice my size or something along those lines. Then I hear about women how have worst conditions then me like cancer who are still able to get pregnant without any problems. This really makes me blow a fuze.

I love my ward. They are all amazing and I care for them. But today I heard a story about a lady who had a child after she was worked on her thyroid cancer. Right then I just really wanted to scream out loud.  Don't get me wrong. I am happy that family was able to have such a little miracle to help them through some hard times. Blame the hardships for the pain right?

I just don't get why I have to deal with people who say "oh, it must not be your time" or "it will happen eventually, promise" or the most famous one that I keep getting "do you really want to deal with kids or even have them?" That saying comes a lot from people outside of the church and I really want to smack them. Sometime I even get "the Lord doesn't give you more than you can handle"...wrong. That is the only way the Lord can test you. Think about it people.

I really want our children. I had to go thru huge changes in my life on top of a miscarriage and dealing with the hardships of getting pregnant when everyone around me is and some very stupid doctors. It has been over 2 years since I have had the miscarriage. The memory is still very fresh in my head and it will be for a very long time. Let this be a ward to people who don't know the hardships of infertility, don't just assume that things will work out for other and telling them that. Just be there and listen to what they have to say...it will help in more ways than one. Promise.