Making A Few Decisions

Recently Logan and I have been going through some troubles which are making us make some decisions. Some have been a couple decision or it has been Logan or my choice. And here is a list of them and what we choose to do:

1. Car trouble - At the beginning of the summer, Logan's car broke down. The bottom of the engine went out. Due to the fact that not only is Logan still going to graduate school, I still have to pay off my loans. We decided to not buy another one until we have some more money and knew if we was going to stay in state after Logan graduates or leave the state.  Also we found a hair-like crack in my car that would take a thousand dollars to replace but since Logan's car is some much like my model that we are going to use parts from his car to put in my car.

2. Infertility - Due to my health problems we still can't seem to have kids yet and we are kid of tried of waiting. So we are take my doctor's word and going on Clomid starting in October. We do not know if this will work or not. We all still think it would help out if I lost 40 more pounds. So....now I'm also getting ready to do a detox that I found out from one of Logan's friends. I'm hoping this helps out a little more too.

3. Student Loans - So Logan still has two more semesters before he is done but due to the fact that for some reason no one wants to hired me Logan when out and got his job back from Sears...only he's going to be working in Idaho Falls Sears now. With this we are hoping to get a lead on somethings but not liking now.

4. Still Looking for a Job - As I said before no one wants to hired me...so we kind of started talking about me going back to school and getting a different degree. I was thinking photography or graphic designer...it's still up in the air right now since we have a lot to look into especially with maybe moving next summer sometime towards the end of it. .

Done With School

I have finally finish school!!! I now have an AAS in Culinary Arts along with a technical certification. It feels great to be done with it. Well, for now it is. I still plan on getting a minor in business management so I can run a business. I went to the College of Tech's graduation also on the 5th of December. Only a few people went to the graduation, Logan, his mother Barbara, and my brother Korey. I also forgot to bring my camera with me so I could have someone take pictures for me, so Korey took a few pictures with his phone. At the moment, I do not have those pictures but once I do I will get them posted. I was so happy to be able to share an important moment with my family. ^-^

As of right now, I am working on becoming healthier, so I can reach my other goals.

Neglecting Myself

Recently I've notice that I have really neglected myself since I started college and working full time either in voluntary work or jobs/internships. Since the beginning of starting to get healthy I've also neglected myself in some ways. I was worried about everyone or everything else more than my health or me. In fact, it got to the point where even though I really help others, I was being used to much for way to many things that I shouldn't let happen. I'm really starting to learn that I may like to put everyone or everything else in front of me but I also need to really think about myself. I have my own goals to reach, not only for the present but for the future too. I know that this is going to be one of the hardest things for me just because I always valued others than myself especially all those people who have or will have everything they wanted. But now I know it's not easy for everyone. Everyone has their own problems may it be health, family or themselves.

I now know that I NEED time for ME. I NEED to tell people ever now and than NO instead of always saying YES. I need to be there for family but in a way that I WON'T get hurt or used, as the same with friends. I need to be able to be STRONG not only for me but for my future self. I need to have FAITH in myself with my studies and more. I need to SUPPORT my husband and me in a way that only I can. I need to be POSITIVE about what to come and DEAL with my trials in a way that doesn't stress me to the fullest. I need to learn to be able to TALK to people and tell them what I really feel about something or someone. In a way, I have to make a LOT of change but I have come a long way. I need to ACCEPT myself. I am hoping with all these goals that I may be able happy with myself and not always belittle myself.

High School Years

Today, I was doing some cleaning and saw my high school year books. I pulled out my senior yearbook and started looking through it. I still remember being silly and enjoy myself back with many old friends. It was also weird that it wasn't that long ago but in a way it is. I remember eating with so many friends, talking about guys, and all that fun stuff. To tell you the truth, I would have to say my senior year was full of so many memories. I got to know a lot of people that I never thought I would get to know. I also thought that I would never make it to a prom in my high school years but I got the courage to ask Logan (not my husband) to sweet hearts. Now that night was fun...along with so many swim meetings. I also loved my job so much at the time too. There were so many nights that we would just hang out and talk or play water games. Let see...it's 2011, so it's almost been 5 years since I graduate from high school. Man....I feel old. Since than I haven't really kept in touch with a lot of people but I still have my very close friends still. Kristi and Brooklin are both in Utah. Kristi is finish up school here soon and Brooklin is married and loving her marriage. I still keep in touch with some of my guys friends too...like Logan and Kyle (both from IF High School). Logan lives in Utah too (sheesh, Utah is such popular ^-^) and Kyle is in Pocatello. And to think that our 5 year reunion is coming up is really weird too. I will have to see how everyone is doing and what they have been up to.

Dead and Final Week

Well, as I posted before we planed on moving during dead week but we never thought that we would be so busy during dead week. Actually busy doesn't describe our dead week...it was more like chaos! Not only did we have to study for finals we also had to change addresses, bills and finish packing along with moving. I would never have thought that I would be that busy! If I remember correctly, the last time that something like that happen was around the time we was getting married (but that's a story for another day). Anyways, somehow we manage to move and Logan was able to study and finish some really huge projects so he could graduate in the fall. Oh...I also had to give a speech which I ended up going over by two minutes!! As for me...I didn't get to study all that much. Actually there's a huge chance of me having to retake a class in the fall along with finishing up my internship. I will see by the end of night.

As for Finals Week, that was even more busier that the last. It took me 3 days to finish my baking final and the turnout was great!!! Here's some pictures of it.

These are my White Chocolate Mousse Tartlets with Kiwi and Strawberries as the toppings.

These are the same things but in a smaller tartlet. Sorry for the fuzziness.

This is all the finals that were made for the baking final.

And the final project! 

I also had two finals online, one due on the Wednesday night and the other one due Thursday night. Not only that, I also had a final down in Pocatello again Thursday afternoon and to tell you the truth...I only study for that test for about an hour. The grade for the test was bad but wasn't my worst test score. I have passed most of all my classes so far...I'm just waiting on the one. I'm so nervous!!!

Anxiety Attacks!!

Recently, I've been getting really bad anxiety because I've getting so stressed over school. I have so many projects that are due towards the end of the semester that I don't know where to start. I have a dessert menu that I have to put together along with drawings of how the desserts are placed. The bite size desserts is for a banquet for the Dean. I also have two interviews that I have to do for my TGE class. One is a mock interview and a professional interview. I also have to start practicing for my baking final in which I have to make bit size desserts. I have to make about 25 of them but I'm not sure what I am going to make yet. I have to also study for final exams in Biology, Communication, and TGE. For my Communication class I have a huge speech that I have to make a survey, outline, peer review, and practice for the actually speech which is 8 to 10 minutes. Along with all of that, Logan just started to get better for having strep throat for the first time and this week, he has major projects due for two classes and his FE test this saturday. With all of that, I'm still packing and I've also started working again at the pool as a side job to help save money. Does anyone have any remedies for this?? *sign*

Makeover and Update on Us (Along with My Secret)

I've been looking for a background that fits both Logan and I and I did. I love the new background and I finally figured out how to add a good banner too (that's because of Logan...he's so smart. ^-^)

Anyways, a small update on us is needed. It's been a while since I lasted updated on us. We are at midterms week...and life just got 3 times busier for us. Not only do we have to study, catch up on homework and do midterms...we also have to start packing. I know that we are starting to packing earlier than we should but I think it's better this way because about once or twice a week we end up going to Idaho Falls, so we can drop off some of our stuff off at either of our parents which will making it easier moving out. We wanted to move out by the 29th of April now. Yes, that's the final date. We also got accepted into some of the apartments that we applied for too. Logan wants to look more into a townhouse since there is a chance that he may continue on with school and get his masters since the economy is still so bad. As for me, I'm still looking for an internship. I'm not really looking at the moment with school being so busy since I've missed so many days of school because of my body (I'll talk about that in a minute). I'm so behind now it's not funny. I may be able to catch up this week with Monday a holiday.

As for missing days of school...that's all because I finally figured out a way to get better. As I have stated on Facebook, I have recently lost another 7 lbs and in total I have lost 38 lbs. Anyways, my body has been doing a cleansing on it's own...so I have been visiting the bathroom a lot out of the day going with diarrhea. Sometimes I got really sick too..but I never threw up, lucky. The big secret behind me losing so much weight is that I'm not eating a lot of meat and carbs together and more fruits and vegges and drinking lots of water (I've also been asked multiple times if I was pregnant since I was going to the bathroom so much, but I'm not). Pretty much when I eat, 75% of my plate is a combination of fruits and vegges and the other 25% as either be a small portion of meat (usually chicken) or carbs (whole wheat breads or pasta). Just to let you know, with all the fruits and vegges...our groceries have been costing a little more than we like but Logan is fine with it since I'm getting better. I've also been trying to drink about 4 liters of water...because for every 50 lbs, you drink 1 litter. For example 200 lbs would be 4 litters. I've not been able to exercise because I'm so busy with school but then again I do walk about half the campus every day but Tuesday.  

That's about all I can say for now. I got to get back to homework...I can't wait until I'm done! ^-^

The Chili Cook Off

This last Wednesday we when to the Chili Cook Off that was held at ISU. On Monday of this week, we decide that we should do boys again girls. It was a blast! The boys kept on tell us that theirs was going to taste the best and everything like that. We just kept on making our Chili. So Monday was Prep Day. Prep Day is when we go back to the kitchen and start getting things together and making sure we have everything. Tuesday; we cooked off our chili half way because the recipe called for sour cream and heavy cream. If we had put them in that day they would taste weird the next days, so all we did was cooked the beans, onions, chicken with some spices. Wednesday; we got to class early because we had to be at the place for the competition by noon with everything sit up and we also had to finish the chili. It took us a while to finish the chili but we got it done in time to go. The guys had beer in their chili in which they didn't cook it all the way out (which was sad, because I really wanted to tired it). Anyways, we get there and the guys had not gotten all the things that they needed so they used what we had....I really don't know if they had read the rules or not. Anyways, the girls took 3 out of the 4 awards! We took 'most favorite', 'overall winner', and 'best placement'. We didn't win the last one because our chili wasn't "hot" (spicy, in other words) which was fine with us. When the guys found out they didn't say a word besides great job. Anyways, it was a great overall experience. I hope I get the chance to do something like this again. But this time I hope it will be involving baking through. ^-^

Back Left to Right: Emily Brown, Teri (Nikki) Kerbs
Front Left to Right: Me, Genesis Romano, Jessica Sheetz

Life As We Know It

A lot has happened since the last time I updated the blog. Let's see...school started, we had our second anniversary, I know a bunch of people who are having kids soon, Korey is still on his mission, my Dad's retirement is getting closer, weird events with old phones, lots with my health, and life at home.

School started a month and half ago. It's weird...I think midterms are not this week but the next. It's so weird. School is going great...I've not had any bad grades yet (and I'm hoping it stays that way!). This year my schedule is very open. I only have 4 classes. 1 required (Concepts of Accounting), 1 general (Psychology 101) and 2 advanced classes. This semester is pretty easy going for me. I may only have to take a few more next semester which means that I will be packed! I have 3 advanced classes and  maybe 2 generals. It's a maybe because I think I will be able to not take one of the classes because I already have a 4 credit class on my record, but I have to go in and talk to a counselor about the whole thing...I'm hoping that I don't have to take it.

As for our second anniversary....we went to Utah again and spent some time together. We also saw some family too. We left from Pocatello around 3 and arrived at Provo about 6:30. We hit a lot of traffic and construction too. It really sucked a lot. Anyways, we went there to see some friends that we have not seen since their wedding the month before. We had a blast with them. We went out and ate together and than we kind of went shopping (more like them...we was trying to not spend a lot of money.) and than we went back to there place and played Phase 10 for about three hours. It was so much fun! After that we headed to the hotel for the night. The next morning we went to Lagoon from 10 to about 5:30. I had hoped that we could stay later but I kept on getting sick from the rides (and to this day, I think I got sick because of all the medicine I'm on). Afterward, we headed towards Logan's Aunt house (Susan's). By accident we ended up in Bountiful and visited the temple since it was so close by. Later on we got to Susan's house and Logan's mom and Carolyn was at the house too. So we all sat down and talked for about 4 hours before everyone decided to go to bed or work on homework. The next morning we headed home around 11...I think....so we got home about 2 (because we made a stop at a rest area where we ran into Logan's mom and Carolyn again by surprise).

So....I know about 4 or 5 people finding out that they are pregnant. In a way....it's kind of upsetting me (which also has to do with all the medicine I am on again!) I love the fact that they are so happy about it. I can't wait til everyone has their kids. Let's see....there is Jacqueline and Jack, Tyrel and Tricia, Logan and Alli, Jessica and Tanis, and there was one more but I don't remember at the moment. But it's amazing what the Lord does for us.

As for my brother, he is doing great! He's still on his mission. He has had multiple companions that he has really love serving with. He's been to a total of three different areas now since he got to his mission. Right now, he is at Capital Heights, right outside of D.C. He's hoping to get an area that he can ride a bike around in. He's also has gained some weight (would too if I was on a mission too! All that food!), at one point he actually had a trainer training him at a gym from one of the wards. He really enjoyed that! But right now he's driving a mini van or something like that. It's so funny! Korey driving a van!! Hahaha...I thought I would never hear that happening. Anyways, I got some pictures from Korey that I will put together a slideshow to put on my blog.  

As for what's going on with my Dad and he's retirement....It's a long story. Let's just say that he had a lot of trouble with his heart and now he is having neurotic problems with his back. The doctor at the hospital doesn't really want to release my Dad on medicinal retirement but the other one does. He doesn't really get to sleep whatsoever while he's on the job. It pretty much sucks! And I don't ever get to talk to him unless he's not busy.

So we have been having some weird events with our new and old cell phones. So first, the red one that I got when we got our own plan got ran through our clothes washer...and it didn't work. So that was about over six months ago and yesterday, it just started to work out of the blue!! So, all the contacts that I lost, I now can get them!!! ^-^ Also, my littlest brother dropped his phone in the mud one day so we took it to someone we know, so that maybe he can save it. But...again...Char dropped his phone in mud which has water. Soooo after trying to fix it for about a month the guy couldn't get it to work. Anyways, the guy was so busy for a month but within that time the phone started to work again!!! So now we have two back up phones. It's so weird! I also have been having problems with my phone through. I have to take it in because I have not been receiving texts or calls again (yes, this has happen before when I first got the new phone).

Well, as for my health...back at the end of July I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I guess all three conditions that I have usually come in a package. They just didn't know about this until they took a blood test in mid-July. Anyways, I've pretty much gotten it under control since than...I have another appointment this week to take a few blood test. If I remember right, they wanted to check everything to see if everything is getting better. As for the other two condition, I think I have been managing them pretty good. I'm crossing my fingers that the PCOS is going away (actually, cured). With the insulin resistance, I can easily manage it with exercising everyday. 

As for Logan and I, things are going great! We are having some hard times but we are getting through them. We see each other a lot more this semester because he works less hours at the moment at Sears. But even when he's home I don't usually get spend the time with him because he has a lot of homework this semester. I'm the opposite so I get so bored to easily when he's not even in the apartment. Logan also has been busy at the Lab finishing up an experiment that they are working on. They should be done with it this week. He now has a class from his boss, Dr. Williams, which he finds weird but he really enjoys it. Logan is a senior (like me) but he won't graduate until December of next year. I found out recently that when he's home I do a lot more than I do when he's not home....I wonder if that is really weird???? Anyways, I have recently picked up a lot of projects so it should keep me busy til after Christmas....I hope anyways.

Life is so crazy!!!

Life has been so crazy lately. There is so much to update on so I'll just do it all in this blog.

For over a year, I have been having weight gaining problems. I would work out and not lose a pound. Actually, I gained a lot when I did. I went to doctors and tried to tell them that there was something wrong with me. Most of them would tell me that I just need to get active more and said that I was too young for anything to be wrong. So after moving to Pocatello, finally after working out for over two months with a classmate and gaining about 20 lbs, I went to the student health center to get help. Well, I have finally found out what was going on with my body. Last month, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) and Insulin Resistance. When I heard this, I was so thankful that I found out about it. If I had not, well, there would of been a lot more trouble for Logan and me. My doctor told me that it was a good thing that we found out now. She said if I had waited for about 6 months to a year, I would of been diabetic and probably won't been able to have kids. I've been on metaformin for a little over a month now and I have lost 10 lbs! It's soooo exciting! I'm really happy that I decide to go to the health center for help. I really do love the doctors there. I don't know how to thank them but I want to from the the bottom of my heart.

Because of my medicine, I've been having a hard time with keeping up on school. My body is not used to having medicine everyday, so I've been getting really sick and been missing days of school and work. But as the days go by my body doesn't freak out so much anymore. It usually does it when I up the dose. The doctor doesn't know fore sure when I'll be getting off of it, but each time I go in she says that I've been doing great and that I still have a ways to go. It's hard sometimes to keep up on my medicine daily and keeping out of the sweets.

I have been having a lot of trouble with one of my professors right now. He's so closed-minded. I do not learn that well from teachers like that. He thinks that he knows everything and that everything he does is right. I have so many things that I want to tell him but I think he will only learn from someone over him. Everyday, he tells me to do something with my specials and it always seems to ruin them. I've already told him off once this semester about it. I have one more week with to deal with him than I'll be back in the bake shop with Chef Karen. It will be easier. Although, we have two mysterious demos. There is so many ways he could take points off because of them. To tell you the truth, I'm actually thinking about transferring colleges so I won't have to deal with it...I have not really learned anything this semester. So many are dropping out of the program because of him...most are transferring to a different school but there are some that are actually planning on never going back to it again. It's a good thing that I only have three more semesters. I don't know what I would do if I had more than that. One of my friends from the program has been talking to me about just staying and deal with the problems because I don't have that long to go. There is a part of me telling me to do that.So I think I will. It's going to be hard and tough but I have friends, family and Logan to help me out with my schooling. As for Logan, he has three more semesters too. Only he will get done at the end of Fall of 2011.

Life for Logan and I is going well. We have so many things going on right now. Logan works and goes to school most of the time. I'm still working a little and practically living at the school. We have now known each each other for 2 years. It's so weird to think that we have been together for a year and a half and it's only been that long since we had met. Also, we are very excited for Natalie to come in May. Nathan, Katlin and the family is so antsy and can't wait. In a way it's kind of weird for me to have another niece and also Katlin having a kid before me. Hahaha....Life is so fulled with gifts in so many ways. I can't wait to have my first bundle of joy to come. Logan can't wait either. It's funny. Every few weeks, he changes his mind on what he wants. Right now he wants a boy first. To me, I would love to have a boy first. I had always wanted an older brother to look up to. Also I've recently gotten really depress about having kids. I was afraid that I wouldn't get the enjoyment of motherhood. But after reading my blessing a few times, it helped out a lot. I'm so happy that I have blessings like this. I do not know what I would of done if I could not be able to give Logan a kid.
Also, we have plans to move back to Idaho Falls. We will be moving back in Spring '12. I can't wait!! We miss both of our families. We have such a hard time see them every week because most weekends we use them to catch up on many things that needs to be catch up on the things we need to do get done. We was thinking of getting a small house and waiting for Logan to get his PE test done and passed before we get a bigger house built.

Birthday that have been since December are: Oma's, my, Brooklin's, Barbara's, Nathan's, and Char's.  Birthdays for this month are Amanda's and my Mom's. 

Wine Tasting in School For White Wines

So, in my Wines, Beers, and Spirits class, we were tasting white wines(but I didn't). Most of the class was really enjoying this because...hey! They get free wine. But the point of tasting the white wines was to see how something can smell so different from it tastes(which I won't know and I dont' want to know). We also learned how to present it to customers and stuff. I never did the presenting to someone but someone presented it to me. It was Billy (which she is a great person, and she's funny too), but she knew that I wasn't tasting the wines so she said it wasn't going to be as fun. Always, from when the first wine was open until when I got out of the class room I felted sick it smelled so bad. We was suppose to smell the five different wines and see what they smelled like but all I smelled was the alcohol. I guess it's a good thing the I don't drunk. At the end of class, Billy had bet five dollars if Jake (another kid from the classes)drink the a cup with all the wines combine and he did! I just kept on watch everyone get giggly and drunk...yes. Some actually got drunk from just drinking a little bit. Anyways, on Thursday we're suppose to be doing red wines or something like that. I think I may see if I can skip that. I really don't want to get sick again. It was nasty!