Making Another Decision

A lot of people know that I love my D.O. doctor and my new Gyn/OB doctor...but for some reason things just aren't connecting and working. I mean I do have an amazing gyn/ob doctor who put in the time to figure out what was really going on with my infertility problems and my d.o. who got me pregnant 6 months after I started to see her.

On top of that, I have done so much studying on PCOS, IR, Adrenal Fatigue, and Hypothyroidism (problems that are all hormonal based). I am getting so confused. I know food is my best medicine at this point but there are so many things saying this veggie is bad for your thyroid or fruits can be bad for your sugar levels. And to top it off, there are so many people in my family that are having babies. Yeah...try dealing with fertility problems when most of your siblings are expecting (who are married). That throws some very huge loops with your emotions. I even helped with my sister-in-laws baby shower which by the way I had a blast doing.

 So I decided on see a naturalpath doctor to see if I can more things figured out. I saw her Friday and let me tell you it was a great thing to go see her. By the way, her name is Dr. Karie Jonak. Anyways, let's say that it was amazing what she found out in 10 minutes.  There's a whole list full of stuff plus what I have already! Here is the list of things that she discover that was going on in my body.

• Borderline anemia (most likely due to lack of copper)
• 2 type of parasites
•  Yeast
• Bacteria
• Mold 
• Not enough enzymes 
• Metal toxin buildup
• Adrenal glands are shot (very badly too)
• Intestines are a little back up due to the lack of enzymes
• inflammation from pelvis up to my head

On the plus side, she commented on my white blood cells and uterus. She said that my white blood cells were amazing! And my uterus looks great even with all the hormonal problems I have. And while she was look at my blood and the map of my body (by blood) I got to see everything and understand why my body is doing what it is doing. I would say that I would send anyone to her.

Anyways, she give me a list full of stuff to do for a few things so I don't over whim myself with treatments. Here is what she is having me do right now until the next time on May 19th.

• Adrenal support tincture blend - take 10 drops under the tongue in the morning and through out the day whenever my body is about to crash...usually up until about 5:30 pm or it has me up until 1 in the morning.
• Sarsparilla formula tincture blend - this blend is just for my lack of progesterone in my body. It is from the sarsparilla root and is a lot easier on the than progesterone cream. I take 10 drops under the tongue 3 times a day. 
• Parasite Formula tincture blend - this one is for a the parasites in my body...take 10 drops under the tongue morning and night and keep it under my tongue for a minute. 
• Smoothie - this smoothie that I am to take daily has a beet, carrots, celery, strawberries to taste, lemon (peeled), 1/2 cup of papaya and 1 tbsp of papaya seeds. This is suppose to help with the borderline anemia, getting more enzymes in my body and digestive system. She told me to get the papaya from Mexico because the other ones have lots of GMOs in them.
• Castor oil package - I have to put this on my area where I have my ovaries and uterus at. It will help with the metal buildup in that area. What I do is take an old towel and soak it in castor oil with a few drops of lavender essential oil (helps with healing) put it in that area then wrap it with plastic wrap and put a hot rice bag on top of it. What this is suppose to do is help open up my tubes and get the cysts to go away. I guess I will see when I go back to Dr. Merrill for an ultrasound. 
• Emergen "C" package - I am suppose to combine it with cream of tartar, grapefruit seed oil, and sliverboitics. This is suppose to help with lots of stuff...to tell you the truth I forgot what it did but it does something that helps.

AS of Saturday afternoon, I have so much energy! I feel great and happy. Not really feeling sick or tired which I am loving! I've never had results this fast in any treatments! I am so happy. I have caught up on a lot of stuff and still catching up on things. I can even help Logan out more getting the garden ready to plant all the seeds we have. I have been trying to talk Logan to go in and see Dr. Jonak for his skin condition. I will see if I can get him to. I can't wait to see the end results of this now.

Another Nephew!

I just got another nephew and he looks so much like both of his parents. At first I though he looked more like Cale but the next day I got a picture and he looks like both of them now. Isn't it so funny how much a baby can change in 24 hours?

Anyways, his name is Bryson Blake Hiaring. He was born on March 28th. He was 7 lb 5 oz and 19 inches long.

Isn't my nephew so cute/handsome! I can't wait to see him in the summer! Congrats again Cale and Allyssa!

Daxton Otto Danklefsen

I would like to announce that my handsome little nephew has finally come. This is Korey's and Stefanie's little boy. He looked a lot like Korey besides the fact that he doesn't look like a hairy ape as Korey did when he was born. There was a lot of family waiting there during the c-section. When we first saw him no one knew if he was the right baby. Brook even asked if it had a penis? Really? It was pretty funny at the time. Anyways, has soon as we was told that it was little Dax we all rushed to the window and started to take lots of pictures.

moments into the c-section

 We had to wait a little wait for Stefanie to get comfortable after the c-section and do Dax's first feeding before we was able to come and see the whole new family.

Korey introducing the new family member to all the family there.

 Unfortunately I was having a hard time about this point due to the miscarriage and wanted my own little miracle. And to top it off there was just so many people there that I just waited until it start clearing out (actually Korey came and got me and told me to come in). When Logan and I walked in there Korey told Shami to hand over the baby to me and Logan. I do have to say that little man sure did wake up my mother instincts. Moments after getting him, he just stare in the direction of my face (I know that babies can't really see at this point) and I felt like we bonded right there. After Logan took my picture and I handed him off to Logan. I wanted to see him hold another infant in his arms. (I have always loved seeing Logan hold a new born infant. He's just so gentle and in a way it lets me know somewhat what he will look like when we have our own.)

Logan's first time holding little Dax

 Logan did hold him for too long because Stefanie's sisters came in at that point so we handed him off too them. I do have to say that this little man sure was a blessing to all of us that day. I can't wait to see what he turns out like.

One day off little Dax

Update on Health Problems

I will tell you that I always forget why I love my doctor so much. To tell you the truth I do not like doctors at all (if you couldn't tell). I don't know why but for some reason I just do not like doctors.

Anyways, this morning was hard for me to get up because I only got about 3 hours. I had to take Logan to work and then when home to eat breakfast. When I got to the office I was falling asleep in the chair in the front office and when I was back in the room waiting for Dr. Wheeler. I will tell you that I didn't even wait for 5 minutes before she got to the room. When she walked in the room she could just tell that there was a problems.

After we started to talk about, I explained what kind of symptoms I was having and everything that she need to know that I was doing for my health. I will tell you I felt like crying the whole time I was there because I am just so done with everything that has to do my health. Dr. Wheeler said that my body isn't responding to the thyroid medicine. She said that she wanted to up the dose from what I have been on. I told her that it was fine but I wanted to do something that is more natural for the body. She asked if I wanted to do the Armour Thyroid. When she said that my whole body relaxed but I didn't let it because I think I may have passed out in a way. We also talked about do part of the 5-2 diet. This has to do with eating like I usually do but two days of the week I have to only take 500 calories. I talked to her about maybe just juicing those days and she said that would be great. She than told me that there is more to my health problems. She told me that it is most likely adrenal fatigue. There isn't really a test to take but it's Ok because she knew from my symptoms what was going on. So she gave me a supplement for my adrenal glands to help them go back to normal.

I will tell you that adrenal fatigue is due to some type of trauma, under a lot of stress and many more things. So my doctor subject that I should see a counselor for anxiety problems. Well, I will be truthful. I have been seeing one for 2 months now. There has been many things that I probably should have been able to deal with things like the miscarriage and more that I have to help with the grieving progress that I always just pushed off when I needed to cry. I am truly grateful that Logan was supportive about the decision in the first place. He has even joined me in one the of the sessions and it helped him understand a lot of what I have gone thru and what I am going thru right now which is a life savior for me.   

 Dr Wheeler did say that it would be a good idea to still see Dr. Merrill and have some test done and see if there are more problems with my ovaries or tubes because if they are it will take some time to fix. I will be see her next week on Tuesday and I guess I will have to see what tests and the results are. I sure am praying for some answers there for sure too.

I would say that I am very happy that things are getting figuring out now. I know that there are times when I just want answers and I want things to just go back to normal before I started getting sick but there are things that I need to know or learn before I need to more on with life. We sure do have a wild ride for life.

Day 9 & 10 - Saying Good-bye to Italy And Getting Home

I had actually gotten to bed at 3:30 am in the morning and woke back up around 7 and then 8. I finally got Logan to get up a little after 8 too. We went downstairs and ate breakfast (the usually).  After breakfast we had to pack our stuff due to the fact that we had to be out by noon even though our flight isn’t until 7 pm tonight. We had hoped that they would let us stay until 3 but they were so busy with people coming today that we really needed to leave. We finished packing around 11. We had so much more stuff…probably due to the gifts that we got for family members. Since we had about 45 minutes, I decided to send a few emails out and read a little.

We were able to check out without any problems (that made us happy. We were afraid that they would want cash instead of a credit card to pay for the hotel). We then walked to the train station which was harder then I though with all our luggage. Reminder, don’t walk all your luggage to the train station which is about 15 minutes away from the hotel. We caught the train to Pisa Center and then to the airport stop. We than had to wait for couple hours before we could get on the flight.  

 Meanwhile, Logan and I got a snack (Gelato…I am really going to miss it) and dinner. I had grilled chicken (which it was pan fry-ed instead of grilled) and Logan got pasta and raw vegetables (after the fact that I comment on how he hasn’t really ate any this whole trip). Right after that we got checked in and soon was on our way to Rome.

When we got to Rome we saw that we got there a few minutes early so we looked around for about 15 minutes and by than it was time to boarded the airplane that headed to Paris. Let’s just say this flight had about 30 people on it…and it was so empty that I had a whole row to myself. We thought that it wasn't going to be this empty but than again it was really late and not a lot of people in the airport either. This flight went pretty fast for me. I was reading a really great book (which I finished and now need to get the second book of the series).

When we got close to Paris I looked outside of the window. It was so pretty. There where so many lights. The best part about this is that we got to see the Eiffel Tower! I really wish that we could of got a taxi and go see it in person but that would cost us an arm and a leg to get there and back. So instead we just went to the hotel and slept for about 5 1/2 hours. I would also like to say that the Paris airport makes Dallas, Texas airport tiny! It was that huge! Lucky there we sign every and I could understand some french (due to my major and an old friend that I don't talk to anymore). Anyways, to get to the hotel we needed to get a taxi. We found where the taxis were waiting but the thing was our taxi driver didn't know where our hotel was! I have never heard of a taxi driver not knowing where they need to go. I've never been so annoyed in my life and to top it off he tried to charge us extra due to the fact that he got lost! Logan and I was not happy at all.

After sleeping in Paris, we flew back to Salt Lake City and drove home. The next day we spent most of the night packing for our new home!

Bridal Shower with Baker Family

I went to a bridal shower yesterday. It was kind of weird and great at the same time.

The weird part of it is because I don't really know Kala's family all that much (Daniel's finance) or in fact her. But I did find out that she likes a lot of things that I like. ^-^ It was really hard for me to remember everyone's names. There were a lot of unique names.

We had fun games and everything. I haven't been to many of these for a while. But I was really surprised when I saw one of my good friend's mom walk in. I was stock. I haven't seen her for a few years. It was so good to see her again.

There were also lots of pies there...not so great for someone who is going on a cleanse here in a few days but I decided to have one just because of that reason. There were also chocolate cover strawberries and a veggie dish with pink lemon and water. I mostly eat the strawberries because they were so huge!

In the end it was really fun meeting everyone and playing the games.

One Busy Saturday

Saturday was so busy!!! We had so much to do and things that are happening this next few months.

Let's see, the day started off wrong. Logan forgot to finished setting the alarm clock and we ended up getting up over more than an hour. We was actually cutting it to two hours too. So we got up and Logan run to the bathroom and I made breakfast for us. As soon as I finished, I hurried up and jumped in the shower myself. We was suppose to be at our church building at 9:30am but we actually didn't get there until 10 o'clock. We are in the primary. We teach the sunbeams and we was practicing for the Primary Program that was today. (Because of the Primary Program I wasn't able to go to see Kaya's Homecoming talk...I felt bad. At least she understand why). We even got out of there late because they were having trouble getting the pizza there. And I am proud to say that I did not take a piece of pizza. Logan had a piece...I let him considering he has already lost 20 lbs from the last 2 1/2 months. We got home about 1 o'clock that afternoon.

As soon as we got home, we had to start getting ready to be a the temple by 1:30. Logan's sister Amanda was getting her endowments. Before getting there, we headed to subway and had a small lunch. We got there about 15 minutes earlier than planned and found out that Logan's mom left her camera at home. So we went to her house (which is 5 minutes away from the temple) and picked it up and was soon back at the temple. By the time we got back, it was time to head in. Amanda's good friend Jason and his mom came for it. It was really nice. Every one that came was us, Barbara, Carolyn, Amanda, Jason and his mom ( don't know her name yet).  I always seems to get experiences of some type of emotions whenever I go through a session or a sealing. With the recent struggles, I ask the Lord for help but I got something so surprising that I was so happy that I was crying to the point I had snot running everywhere. I was so embarrassed!!!!

I was able to clean up and was the last one out. As soon as we got out of the temple we took a few pictures for the experience. Amanda again told us about how her mom said to take a few pictures of us (Logan's Mom is always the one taking the pictures....so when we heard about this we were all surprised). Afterwards, we (Jason, Amanda, Carolyn, Barbara, Logan and I) went to Apple bee's for dinner. Later, Barbara dropped off Jason and ran to the store before meeting us back at her place. We than had brownies (fudge-like which is not Logan's favorite) and ice cream and Logan opened up his presents. He got a propane lantern and swiss rolls which I have asked if he could throw away but he has said that he will take his time eating them.

After that, we had to go and get my sister, Breanna and her step-brother Carl and watch them for a few hours which ended up like an extra hour. But we went to get Logan's present from me at petsmart. I'll write about that in the next post. We than we back to our place and played RockBand Lego. She really love that one. We played until we where so tired that all we can do was watch t.v. until her mom got here. Than off to bed! 

My Small Blessings

Last week (or was it the week before???) Logan went in and got tested. We received great news that there was nothing wrong with Logan. Everything was perfect. I was so happy for him! That was one less thing to worry about.

But than I realized that it was all my fault that we don't have kids yet. I was miserable. I don't think I was so miserable in my life besides for the miscarriage. I went for a day or so before trying to talk to someone about it. I have some friends who are in the same problem as us. So I decided to write her. I let her know how I felt and everything. I was really surprised when a few hours later not only did she message me back but she was very supportive about the whole thing. And what makes it even better is she gave me a few talks to read. I cried after reading them. I was so happy that I wasn't in this alone and that this friend was willing to help me out even tho she is struggling too. I really am gratefully to her. I still have to email her back but I have a different look on things now. I'm happier too. It's friends like them that are truly a blessing. ^-^ And all my friend who are always supportive of me with everything I do. YOU all are truly my small BLESSINGS.

Cale's Small Surprise

This morning I woke up and notice that there was a lot of messages on my phone from facebook. So I get on facebook to find out that my little brother, Cale, who is in the marines and who I've not seen since April, posted these small messages. Now recently I've been really emotional and can't help crying. Well, when I read the message for me I started crying. He's such a great kid. He's pushed through so many hard times as I did and he still remembers all of us while he is gone. I love and miss him so much. I hope to see him at the end of the year instead of next spring. 

I've posted all the messages that he left us. I hope you guys enjoy reading them!:

Mom, you mom were the one that supported me. I remember hearing you get up in the morning early as heck and getting ready for work. You did the best you could every single day you took care of us kids so well. To me it felt like you didn't ever buy yourself anything, you always put us first. You showed me even though the tiger has you by the throat that it's still not over, that you will still find a way. I hope one day mom I can afford to buy you a big house and that you can retire. A house out in the country so you can have as many patches, shilos, and hooch's as possible. I love you mom and I miss you. Don't work yourself to death.

Brad, Deng man we sure did have problems. But you taught me how to solve a problem like a man. That you don't solve every problem with your fist. You taught me a lot brad. You taught me how to build character and how to not drop a car on yourself, haha. The most memorable thing I remember of you brad is when I almost burned the crap out of your chest with the torch at work. Holy geez, I never crapped my pants so hard. But somehow, someway you didn't even have a scratch. When I come back home it'd be nice to go fishing or something. But work is the first priority. Just wanna say thanks for everything. Love you and are care.

 

Dad, you dad. You never ever gave up on me. You always were there to encourage me, to bandage up my cuts and get me back in the fight. You gave me the mentality that I could make it no matter what. Well dad you pushed me along way and you still push me to go even further today. I love you dad and I miss playing catch with you. I know you won't see this but maybe, just somehow you'll see it somewhere or it'll get sent to you. I love you dad. Thanks for always being there and taking care of me.

 

Korey, wow where to begin. You Korey, I remember when you and Tyann would come over for the weekends to spend time with us and every time it felt like Christmas. We just couldn't get enough of you two. But the most memorable thought of you was when you ate it hard on that ramp at your cousins house and skidded for eternity down the sidewalk. You almost landed a front flip but you got up like a champ, like a stallion and kept going, or actually just went in the house but still. I always looked up to you. I love you buddy and congrats on getting Married. Your gonna be a great ball and chain. Haha or is it the other way around. Take care and stay safe.

 

 Tyann, I remember when I was still just a little guy. I took the remote from you and I ran down the hall way and slammed the back door on your toe. I thought I had killed my older sister. Thinking back I wish I was a better younger brother and wish I treated you better. But for now I just wanna say that I am extremely happy for you and Logan and I know you two will start and have a beautiful family. I love you big sis and,I didn't forget about all your chocolate chip pumpkin bread that Char and myself ate. Take care and thanks for everything

 Brooke, I remember when you were really young and we went fishing at Mackey reservoir and instead of fishing you just sat there and ate the worms. Haha. When dad found out he was so mad but so cracked up he just walked away. Your gonna do great things as well Brooke. Just keep pushing and keep getting good grades. Don't let those other girls bring you down, don't let the stupid boys break your heart cause one day a man worthy of being with you will come along. I love you little sis. Take care.

Char, I remember when we were little kids and we'd beat the crap out of each other. It was constant picking on each other but what I didn't realize is that you were the best friend I had. At times I may have made it seem that I didn't care but I always wanted the best for you. I wanted you to play football, I wanted you to play a lot of sports cause I wanted to say that's my brother and be proud when I said it. You were always the underdog buddy but always could find a way to put yourself on top. You got potential buddy and I know you can do great things. I miss you brother and friend. Take care and I love you.

One Of The Worst Days Of Our Lives

So last posted talked about how my body was acting like it was pregnant...well I was. It was so exciting! We was so happy. I found out that I was 8 weeks along. I immediately called my doctors office February 1st when I found out. Anyways, the appointment was on that Friday the 3rd. Right after I found out I called Logan. It was so funny! He had a hard time believing that he was going to be a father. It almost took him...I'm thinking about 4 hrs before it sink in. That night to celebrate we went looking at baby stuff to get an idea of what it was going to be like shopping for it. The next few day was amazing! Logan really got into being a father and looking at what would be the best crib, car seat and etc. that we can afford for the baby and rubbing my tummy a lot.

Anyways, Friday round around and I went to the doctors. Dr. Wheeler was so happy for us! She told me to change my supplements and to schedule an appointment with an OB named Susie Binegar. She talked about what we should be aware of like most doctors do. After the appointment Dr. Wheeler sent me to get blood works for HCG levels, Progesterone level and an OB panel. I also schedule my first prenatal appointment for the Feb 22nd. Logan had to skip class for this and he said he won't missed the appointment for the world.

I went on with the day. I went to my mom's work and told her the good news along with my brother Korey. I also told the rest of my siblings (my sister Amanda was the first one to know out of my family because she always told me about hers when she found out), and Dad. I also asked them to not to tell anyone yet because I still didn't really know how far long I was. After that, I had to watch my niece and nephew for a few hours. Logan and I had the joy of tell them about how there was a baby in my "tummy". They were so happy. Taylor keep telling me it was going to be a girl and Oaklen was tell me it was a boy. A little after five I got a called from the doctors office said that I will need to get another HCG level test done. At that moment, I had this bad feeling...I told Logan about it and he try to calm me down. First off, I really shouldn't be stressing about a little blood work or it's results.

After he calm me down, we went to Logan's mom's house. We had hoped that there was going to be everyone there but only Logan and I, Barbara (Logan's mom), Kat and Natalie. Amanda had gone to Pocatello for the evening for a bridal shower and Nathan was helping out one of Kat's sisters. So I gave Logan the joy of telling his family about the baby. The reacting that we got wasn't what we was expecting but it was so funny! When Logan announced it, Kat said "I knew it!!! I was right"....we all kind of just looked at her in amusement. I guessed that Nathan and Kat both had guessed that I was pregnant the weekend BEFORE!!! I asked how she figured it out and she said that I was really happy and glowing. She than pulled out a little ones for us. It was so cute!! And I told her that I was going to tell everyone that Kat was the once one to get the baby something. Then all the questions started to be asked:

Due date: September 7-14 ( I was pretty sure that it was going to come on the 15th instead)
Names: I'm not going to post them...we kind of wanted to wait until the baby gets here. But we did have a girl's name but Logan and I had not decided on a boy's name yet.
Ultrasound: again...February 22nd.
What did we think it was: I had a pretty strong impression that it was going to be a boy.

I know we got asked a lot of question but I thought I would just put the commons ones on.

During the stay, I feel really weird...kind of panicking. I had started to spotting (which I told the doctor about and she said it was normal for first time pregnancy) a lot more...it started turning red. So I called my sister and she said that it may be a miscarriage or a period. I talked to my doctor again and she said take it easy for the weekend just in case so I did. I went out for a game and that's about it.

Sunday morning I just felt so tired. Logan went to church and I stay at home trying to get some rest, but as the day when by I really started to panic. I called Amanda again just to see if she can help me stop but once I got off the phone, I knew something wasn't right. Just after 2 I tried calling Logan but he didn't pick up. So I jumped in the shower thinking maybe that's all I need. When I was about to get out Logan got home and walked in  to see how I was doing. As I stopped showering, I felt like I was going to faint so I told Logan. Lucky, Logan was there to catch me while I passed out. After I woke up feeling so dizzy and I had to go to the bathroom. After that I knew I was losing the baby. Logan got me to the ER between 3-3:30. I was amazing at how fast they got me back to a room but than I had to do blood test,urine test and 2 ultrasounds. During the beginning of all the tests, I had Logan called our parent to let them know. We got a hold of my parents but not Logan's mom so he left a message to call him back. By the time we got done with the ultrasounds, we got a call from Logan's mom. We told her what was going on and she immediately left home and came to see us. When she got there we was still waiting for the news. When she walked in the room and just started crying again (I don't know how many times I cried while I was in the ER) and I kept on apologizing to her and Logan. Final the doctor came and give us the bad news. We had lost the baby...but I was doing fine. It was happening naturally so the doctor wasn't so worry about me besides it being my first pregnancy. He told me to go home and rest. He put me on bed rest for about a week. I had to call in work and tell them the news, lucky, they worked everything out with me peacefully. By that time, it was already 7pm and all I wanted to do was go home, take a shower, eat something, and have a blessing. Logan and Nathan both gave it to me over at Barbara's house that night.

Today, the bleeding has finally stop. I'm still tired from the miscarriage for many reasons (stupid nightmares). I had a doctor's visit with Dr. Wheeler. She was so sad to hear the news. But she also found out that I needed MMR shot. I am not immune to ruballa at the moment. A pregnant woman needs to be at the least a 5...I was a 4.1. So she told me to schedule a shot at health district and I had to get the shot before the next time we try for a kid and than we would have to wait a month before trying. She also told me that my HCG levels wasn't doing it's job...we don't really know that for sure tho. She decided the next time that I get pregnant to call at once and so they can get me in to do the panels and put me on some supplement to help me with my HCG levels during the pregnancy.

It's so weird how 4 to 5 days knowing that you are pregnant and than losing it was so fast. It was one of the hardest moments in our lives. I do not wish to go through that again. I will not pull Logan through it either. He had cried so much and tried to stay strong for me but it was hard for the both of us.

Month of Many Blessings

This month as been fulled with so many blessings. I can pretty much tell you that it has been a great month for many reasons. Here is a list of the blessing that I've counted:

1. Korey coming home
2. My thyroid dosage drop twice in the last three months
3. My amazing and understanding doctor, Dr. Laramie Wheeler
4. My amazing and sweet husband, Logan
5. My family
6. My friends
7. The Lord and his many blessings
8. The Temple
9. My new family ward

There's so many things that I have been bless with this last month, that I can't count them all.There wasn't a thing that I would not take back last month. I happy to say that there will be many more blessings in stored for not only me but Logan and I. With the coming of Christmas season and the celebration of Jesus birth and the family time that come with it. Happy Holidays everyone.