Making Another Decision

A lot of people know that I love my D.O. doctor and my new Gyn/OB doctor...but for some reason things just aren't connecting and working. I mean I do have an amazing gyn/ob doctor who put in the time to figure out what was really going on with my infertility problems and my d.o. who got me pregnant 6 months after I started to see her.

On top of that, I have done so much studying on PCOS, IR, Adrenal Fatigue, and Hypothyroidism (problems that are all hormonal based). I am getting so confused. I know food is my best medicine at this point but there are so many things saying this veggie is bad for your thyroid or fruits can be bad for your sugar levels. And to top it off, there are so many people in my family that are having babies. Yeah...try dealing with fertility problems when most of your siblings are expecting (who are married). That throws some very huge loops with your emotions. I even helped with my sister-in-laws baby shower which by the way I had a blast doing.

 So I decided on see a naturalpath doctor to see if I can more things figured out. I saw her Friday and let me tell you it was a great thing to go see her. By the way, her name is Dr. Karie Jonak. Anyways, let's say that it was amazing what she found out in 10 minutes.  There's a whole list full of stuff plus what I have already! Here is the list of things that she discover that was going on in my body.

• Borderline anemia (most likely due to lack of copper)
• 2 type of parasites
•  Yeast
• Bacteria
• Mold 
• Not enough enzymes 
• Metal toxin buildup
• Adrenal glands are shot (very badly too)
• Intestines are a little back up due to the lack of enzymes
• inflammation from pelvis up to my head

On the plus side, she commented on my white blood cells and uterus. She said that my white blood cells were amazing! And my uterus looks great even with all the hormonal problems I have. And while she was look at my blood and the map of my body (by blood) I got to see everything and understand why my body is doing what it is doing. I would say that I would send anyone to her.

Anyways, she give me a list full of stuff to do for a few things so I don't over whim myself with treatments. Here is what she is having me do right now until the next time on May 19th.

• Adrenal support tincture blend - take 10 drops under the tongue in the morning and through out the day whenever my body is about to crash...usually up until about 5:30 pm or it has me up until 1 in the morning.
• Sarsparilla formula tincture blend - this blend is just for my lack of progesterone in my body. It is from the sarsparilla root and is a lot easier on the than progesterone cream. I take 10 drops under the tongue 3 times a day. 
• Parasite Formula tincture blend - this one is for a the parasites in my body...take 10 drops under the tongue morning and night and keep it under my tongue for a minute. 
• Smoothie - this smoothie that I am to take daily has a beet, carrots, celery, strawberries to taste, lemon (peeled), 1/2 cup of papaya and 1 tbsp of papaya seeds. This is suppose to help with the borderline anemia, getting more enzymes in my body and digestive system. She told me to get the papaya from Mexico because the other ones have lots of GMOs in them.
• Castor oil package - I have to put this on my area where I have my ovaries and uterus at. It will help with the metal buildup in that area. What I do is take an old towel and soak it in castor oil with a few drops of lavender essential oil (helps with healing) put it in that area then wrap it with plastic wrap and put a hot rice bag on top of it. What this is suppose to do is help open up my tubes and get the cysts to go away. I guess I will see when I go back to Dr. Merrill for an ultrasound. 
• Emergen "C" package - I am suppose to combine it with cream of tartar, grapefruit seed oil, and sliverboitics. This is suppose to help with lots of stuff...to tell you the truth I forgot what it did but it does something that helps.

AS of Saturday afternoon, I have so much energy! I feel great and happy. Not really feeling sick or tired which I am loving! I've never had results this fast in any treatments! I am so happy. I have caught up on a lot of stuff and still catching up on things. I can even help Logan out more getting the garden ready to plant all the seeds we have. I have been trying to talk Logan to go in and see Dr. Jonak for his skin condition. I will see if I can get him to. I can't wait to see the end results of this now.

Meeting Dr. Merrill and Making Plans

Well, I know this is late but at least I am posting about it now. ^-^

Anyways, it was really fast. I got there and checked in, went to the back talked to the nurse about my conditions and what I was taking and meet up with Carrie (I think I just going to call her that because it's easier for me). By the way, the new office looks amazing and it's so big too. 

I meet with Dr. Carrie Merrill and I am so happy that my sister talked me into going and seeing her. Once I introduce myself and let her know that it was my sister who talked about my condition. She asked me a few questions about my thyroid and how it was going. I told her about having a adrenal fatigue now and that I was support it with some supplements. She asked me if I have taken clomid before and I told her that I had. After talking about my conditions and what-not for about 10 minutes, she told me what she wanted to do. She was going to have me get a HSG test to see if my tubes are block and to have some blood drawn for an ovulation assessment test. When I hit cycle day 10 I would be having ultrasounds to see how my ovaries do with producing follicles and releasing the eggs up to when I ovulated.

I have heard that after a hsg test that lots of women get pregnant. I love and hate that fact but who cares as long as it works and enables me to get pregnant. I will post later about how everything when. 

More Problems...AGAIN!!

I swear that my life is never problem-free. There is always something happening that we didn't expect or want to happen...mostly my health.

For the last month I have been really sick and it's not been easy either. Finally, last week I called into my doctor and let her know that I think that my medicine wasn't working anymore because I felt like it was the same as before I was diagnose with my hypothyroidism. Let me remind you what I have. I have been diagnose with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), Insulin Resistance, Hypothyroidism and a infertility problem. Right now I am fighting (still) PCOS, Hypothyroidism and infertility problems. Due to the fact that I know (well, thought) but my doctor said that it wasn't my thyroid and didn't really answer my question about what are mine options were. Well, she said that it's more likely that there was another problem. Really? REALLY?! Have I not gone through enough in five years but now I have to deal with it more. I am tired of one doctor saying there is this problem while others say there are these problems. Well, I am soooo tired of it. I want answers NOW.

Logan and I have both agreed that we can't take this much more. We want to move on with our lives but we can't do that due to the fact that my health is causing so much problems for us. We have decided that if my doctor after 2 years (and the only one that was able to help get me pregnant) can't give me answers or something that feel like should happen. We decided to see two more doctors. Well, an ob/gyn named Dr. Carrie Merrill because she heard about me and my problems and asked if she could help me out. And the other one is a naturopath doctor. This doctor may be more on the natural side (which is the best feeling in the world) but she specialize in hormonal problems and is my older sister's doctor when it comes to hormonal problems. Amanda has told me she has been amazing and so helpful.

Anyways, the day after I left this note to my doctor, she order some blood test. I got them done the next following day. I found out that she asked for hemoglobin (I think I spelled that right) count, blood count, liver and kidney functions, and a thyroid panel. Friday came around and I went to the my doctor's office to get the results and the first thing I looked at was the thyroid panel results...guess who was right! I think I would know my body by now. But soon after I notice that my AST level was low or considered low by 5 points. The first thing that came to my mind was "what is AST level?" So I started looking it up and found out is has to do with the liver. It is one of the two proteins that does a lot of things for the liver. Then I made a wrong decision on my part...I decided to see what can cause this. I will never do something like this again. There were so many freaking things that I just had to stop looking at answers. I can tell you that I will wait until I see the doctor at the appointment for the results. I will never do that again...unless it has to do with a pregnancy.
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Anyways, my appointment is actually Wednesday at 10:30am. I will say that I am worry but I am trying to not worry so much. I will eventually figure out what the test results means anyway. I will post what will happen at the appointment and what decision we decided to take.

Our 5th Anniversary Trip

Yup that's right! WE have now been married for FIVE years and still have who knows how long we have together...actually we do...eternally. ^_^

Anyways, at first we didn't know where or what we wanted to do for our big anniversary. We have no clue what to do for it. So we posted on Facebook that we wanted to do something fun for our anniversary but something close to home so that if something happen to Aeris, we will be able to come home quickly and be able to get her to the hospital or to Logan's Uncle.

Anyways, we got some replies but nothing we haven't done before. So, Logan and I sat down one night and talked about what we can do. We came up with a few ideas but we didn't want to have to plan out the whole  weekend in case I get sick. So we decided to go to Salt Lake Area. We ended up stay at a hotel in Sandy, Utah and travel around that area and up north a little too.

We actually got out of town late...it was more in the afternoon than morning like we had hope for but who cares. We ended up making a few stops on our way out. Afterwards, we ended up stopping in Pocatello due to the fact that ISU owes us some money. So we stop, ate lunch, and than stop at the school to get the money. I, of course, had to wait for Logan to stop talking to Dr. Williams. We was able to get to the hotel in one piece. We went to the South Towne Center Mall in South Jordan, Utah which was 3 minutes away from the hotel along with a Super Target which made life easier for us.

I never really like shopping a lot but it was a lot of fun. I've been looking for an Asian wall folding fan for the house. I haven't really found one that I like until we hit the mall in South Jordan. I was so happy to see that there was an Asian store! You really can't find too many Asian stores around in this part of the States. Anyways, I was able to find a fan that I love! It is amazing. The design of the fan had three different colors that it has...blue/purple, red, and yellow. I decided to get the one with blue and purple. Again this fan is breath taking to me. We haven't decided on where to put it yet but it's going to make the house look amazing.


We also found a game that has two things that dad loves.

The following day we didn't get out of the hotel until noon because we really needed to get some sleep. After we got out, we went and had some fun playing miniature golf. Logan keep making jokes about me trying to actually play golf. He thought that it would be funny watching me hit people with the golf balls like I almost did in High School. He got such a good laugh out of it. We played two rounds the route for the Light House and the Haunted House too. He won The Haunt House route by 8 points and I won The Light House by 3 points. Because we went there we got coupons to go to cold stone for ice cream. On our way to the hotel to put the ice cream in the freezer, we saw the top of the South Jordan Temple. So I asked if we could go there and take a quick picture. While we was there, we ran into a great surprise. We ran into President Wright who used to be our branch leader in the single's wards. We was so happy to see him once again. And after he left, I was surprised. I realized that at every anniversary we always see a new temple...even by accident.

We then went to two different malls. One of them, we got some things for my nephew (hopefully named what they like the most). I will call him baby D. Anyways I got him two outfits that are so cute from Carter's store. I wouldn't mind going there once I find out and when I do get pregnant. I also got both outfits for cheap too. I also found an onies that I just had to have so I brought it with Logan's blessings.

After we walked out of the store, I realize that there are a few birthdays coming up...Amanda's (mine sister), Shami's and than Brooke's. So, I started to go birthday shopping and wasn't really able to find anything. We wanted to go to other malls and IKEA but unfortunately we ran out of time Saturday. So we went to Sunday after we checked out of the hotel. I was able to find a present for one of the people's birthday but not all which sucks. Anyways, I also found a vinyl store with so many sayings that I cried at some of them. Anyways, we went to IKEA and found some great things but we want to wait and figure out what we want to do with the house before we go crazy and buy things. It took us 2 hours to get through that store tho.

In the end, it was great anniversary trip. We had a lot of fun and time together.

Our BIG News

In the beginning of May I announced on Facebook that we had an announcement but it would have to wait until more towards the end of the month. Well, here is what it is:

WE BROUGHT A HOUSE!!!

I am so happy about this big event in our lives! It feels so good that we can move on with our lives now. I mean...I know that there are still more things that can change our lives but with the house we will have enough room when we start having kids which is great!

The house is really cute! It's a five bedrooms, BIGGER kitchen, BIGGER dinning room, living room, 2 bathrooms, a master suite with it's own bathroom with 2 sinks. To top it off, the basement isn't all the way finish! So we can finish the way we want too. We can even add on another bedroom if needed. It's a two car garage but it seems small but always. Let's just say we knew we love it when we walked in the house. The only bad thing about it was the small backyard but to make it better there is a huge (and I mean HUGE) park down at the beginning of the street with 8 soccer fields and a small kids park.

We had some trouble with getting everything to get from one person to another one while we was in Italy during the middle of this but it worked!

Day 5 Of Young and Raw Cleanse

So here is how I am doing on this detox.

Day 2: I would have to say that this day was one of the hardest days. I had so many cravings like chicken. It was really weird. A lot of things didn't really tasted very good to me either. I got really grumpy and upset. I didn't like how everyone was cooking all these things that I would eat. It made it ten times harder to be good and follow the cleanse like I am supposed to. Besides getting really annoyed and grumpy, most of the day I felt ok besides the on and off of energy. I wasn't able to finish the last meal...actually I should say that it was time for bed before I could make the last meal.

Day 3: I would have to say that on this day...I was the sickest so far. I felt like throwing up so much, had really bad headaches, and more. I was also sensitive to lights and the sunlight that is coming from the windows. I was able to eat all the meals. I really loved the blueberry hemp smoothies that I had a few hours before dinner. I will probably make that some more after I get with this cleanse.

Day 4:This day was the first day that I really got dressed since I started the cleanse. My pants on kind of lose again. I am happy that it is working out like it supposed to. At the end of the end I had cravings for coconut butter popcorn.

Day 5:I have to say that last night's dinner was gross! I don't think that will ever have that again. besides that it was pretty good. I also did a detoxing bath to help my skin. It's been getting a lot of bumps on my face. I don't think its acne but it something.

I am always fighting to get energy back somehow. Most days it is hard from me to do things just due to the fact that I don't ever really have enough energy to do anything. I have notice that my body is now no longer sleeping more than 8 or 9 hours of sleep which means that I can actually get up by 9:30 instead of the common 11:00-12:00.

Called In Early

This morning started with me waking up to a strong impression that I should get a hold of an old friend. Funny things is, I haven't heard from her since she was married. I also have no contact number or address...besides her mom's address and I don't think her mom really like me at the moment for some reason.

Anyways, after I got right out of bed, the Dr. office asked if I wanted to reschedule to an early time like 11:30 or noon. So I picked 11:30. I let Logan know considering that he was going with me to the appointment. We got there and got to business.

Dr. Wheeler said that my thyroid is better than it has been for a long time but than again she is confused to why my thyroid not going down. So she started to talk to us about iodine replacement therapy for my thyroid. She thinks that there is a possibility that I am low on iodine. I guess iodine helps the thyroid in a way but I am not sure how yet. More studying for me! She wants me to start taking iodine once a day (just a drop...I guess a drop has 500mg of iodine in it...) and she wants me to go on the gluten-free diet (for 3 months) and see if I have a gluten problem. She said that gluten problems and infertility are common together. I don't know if that's true but whatever. I am willing to try about anything natural over western medicine.  She also having me read up on the iodine therapy from a Dr. Brownstein.

After she talked about that, Logan and I asked about the low progesterone. At first, she was a little confused to the reason why we was asking about it until we told her what we found out. She than started asking me questions about my cycle. Come to find out that she did know everything that was going on with my cycles (every pcos woman symptoms are different and no one is the same). So we (Logan and I) talked more about the symptoms and what the natural progesterone cream can do for me. From the appointment, it sounded like she didn't even considered that I am be low in progesterone but now she is wondering if I am low in both estrogen and progesterone. She is willing to try the NPC if I am low on progesterone.

So now we are looking at 2 things: 1) We need to figured out if the problem is hormonal or just my thyroid or both and 2) get me off of all the medicines due to the fact I have a hard time with them.

The funniest part about the appointment today was when I told her about what Dr. Leavitt was planning on doing. She was so annoyed with him. She told me not to even worry about going back for a while. She wants to get down the problem sooner than later and Dr. Leavitt was just starting at the beginning which I have already done.

Later Logan and I went to the public library and checked out some books on gluten-free diet and meals along with one on progesterone. We also ordered some books that we wasn't able to get at the library. We will be getting those books next Tuesday. Logan and I both think that we are heading in the right direction and that soon we will figure out what is the really problem behind everything that's going on.

My next appointment is on May 9th. Before than I have to get a lot of blood test done. One is to check my thyroid levels (like normal), one to check to see if my thyroid is being attacked by my body, and one for checking my progesterone level.

Lots is going on. I just hope it's figured out soon!

Treatment Plan

I know I haven't been up to date with my health conditions and fertility treatment. Well, for round 3 of clomid was a no and along with round 4. Here I am about to start round 5 and I have a feeling that it won't work either. Well, let's just say I can tell you it's not working for me. Every since I started the Metformin again I can't sleep hardly at all...I have no energy to do anything. As for the Provera (which induces my period) has made very period since on it 10 times worst. I always get really bad back pain...like when you get before a miscarriage and most days it won't go away until my period stops. As far as I know the Clomid is working but side effects. I get heat flashes, headaches and more things. I am tired of medicine and how they only take care of symptoms instead of the actually problem and always making me sick in someway.

So I have decided to go back to Dr. Wheeler and let her know that I just want to start over. I want to go back to the beginning of my beginning treatment plan that I had gotten pregnant on. Well, most of it. I don't want to be on any medicine anymore unless it is a huge need. I have already been working on my eating habits. I am been lacking in the department of exercising due to the fact that I have a lot of stress on me right now and we don't really have the money to do what I was doing.

I also want to try out natural progesterone cream...I think that my body isn't producing enough of progesterone (it is the hormone that helps you have your period, release your egg during ovulation and maintain pregnancy). I looked up about low progesterone and it symptoms and I have about 3/4 of what the list had to say. It is also common that after you get pregnant and have the child hormones get better and fix themselves. In a way it will be annoying that this is all I have to do. So here is what I want or need to do for the next two to three months.

1. I have an appointment with Dr. Wheeler on the 4th. She wants to talk about what the specialist has decided to do and I want to do to talk her about my decision. I will probably also ask for a progesterone test to be done. I want to know it that is the cause of everything because it will be easier to fix instead of all these things that I have been doing. Along with trying the NPC (natural progesterone cream), I want to see if there is anything else I can do to help the progesterone levels. I will also talk to her about how I feel about Dr. Leavitt.

2. I do not think I will be going back to Dr. Leavitt. He's very much into prescribing medicine for a problem instead for figuring out what is the problem. Also he said that if the clomid doesn't work that he will probably put me on a pill that helps cancer patients....I don't have cancer. I did not like that at all. I know he is a great guy and doctor but right now I need to know what is causing all these problems and to fix it so I don't have anymore miscarriages (to this date, we don't know if there as been more than the one we know about).

3. If Logan gets a job out at NRF, I will probably go see Amanda's doctor because she is a specialist in hormonal therapy (natural). Amanda has gotten so health from having her with her problem. And I am willing to go see her. I would actually go see her now but she doesn't take insurance and Logan and I do not have enough money to pay for everything that it will cost but I am going to go no matter what happens.

4. Again, if Logan gets the job, I want to do a juicing cleanse and then eat raw food for 21 days. In doing this I am hoping to jump start my body's system naturally and not cause it so much pain anymore. I am hoping that Logan will also do this with me because it's hard to do something like this alone plus it will be great for his health too. If dad is still living with us maybe I can talk him in doing it too. Who knows. I am actually get lucky.

5. For some miracle, if I get pregnant on medicine that I am on now or the NPC than that's great but I will be seeing Amanda's doctor. I am tried of being sick and not being able to control it either.

So pretty much I will eat healthy like I have been, start exercising again no matter what and come off the medicine. I just hope this works because I am going to be an aunt again but I was hoping to have a child before them...and no, it's not Amanda. I am just going to work on getting healthy like I did before. The best part of this all is that Logan is still willing to help and listen to me. He's the best guy friend and husband I will ever have.

Visit with Dr. Leavitt

So this morning (early morning), I had an appointment with Dr. Leavitt about my infertility problems. I do have to say that I am over joyed that he likes to do the cheaper stuff first than go to the bigger things. He seems like an awesome guy. He personally knows my older sister, Amanda and the best part about this doctor is that he's been through infertility himself. Anyways, here are the details.

1. I will be back on Metformin. 500mg for one week, 1000mg the following week for 2 weeks and 1500mg after that. He said that I will probably taking it until I hit 24 weeks and get an insulin test done to see if I would need to be on it the whole time or if I am fine without it. My older sister was actually ok with me going back on Metformin after asking some question about it.

2. I will also be taking Folic Acid 4 times a day. He said that by increasing the dosage amount on this vitamin will also help getting pregnant. It also helps with the development of the fetus brain too.

3. I have to stay on the clomid and provera so that I actually have cycles. He wants me to stay on the 100mg for the clomid. 

We will be doing this for 3 - 6 months and see what happens. After that time period,  he will run some test and some ultrasounds to check the my uterus and ovaries. If there he finds another problem he will probably work on that for a little while and if not than he will be having me try IUI and then IVF. When he told me the price that would cost for 4 of them, I couldn't believe it. 20,000 for 4 IVF and if none of them works I will get all the money back. 

And now I have to get a hold of Dr. Wheeler to see if she wants me to stay on some of the supplements that I am on. I will also have to test my  thyroid again to see how it is doing now. I think it's doing ok now. I have not have insomnia for a long time now. And Dr. Leavitt has agreed to communicate with Dr. Wheeler whenever I go see him. He told me that he will send all the notes from the appointment to Dr. Wheeler so that she is up to date on everything.

I am also thinking if my I have another high risk pregnancy than I may just stay with him. I don't know much about the other doctors in town but I am happy with the ones that I have right now. ^-^ Anyways, that's about it. I am going to go study up on Folic Acid so I know exactly what it does for me and getting pregnant. 

The Eating-Clean Diet

In the last month (I am not sure when exactly), I came across this great "diet" (life changing...I not a person who looks into any yo-yo diets).


Not many (or many of you) have heard about the "The Eat-Clean Diet". I was one of the many that didn't know about this diet. I was already eating pretty health (well, from what I learned by myself), but my doctor want me to keep changing diets just because we couldn't find the right one for my body. The diet she wanted me to look at was the Paleo Diet..it cuts out a lot of good nutrient and I didn't feel as if was for me. While looking up this diet, I ran across eat-clean. I had a hard time researching it online so I order the "Just the Rules: The Eat-Clean Diet". Once I got it I had it read within the day. It was nuts. I went from "ok...lets see what this one has to offer" to "I want to start now!" IN THE MANNER OF MINUTES. With my college degree, I understand that this is one of the best diets that I have even read about. It does not cut out any of the food groups but it does cut out the processed, overly sugar and toxic foods that we all love and want.

It's only been a few days since I started but my cravings (you know: chocolate, ice cream and what-not) have almost disappear!! I no longer in need for these things. Yes, once in a blue moon I wall enjoy them but only for special occasions like holidays and birthdays. And the other best part of this whole thing is that I am always full and happy. I don't ever over eat anymore due to the fact that my stomach has a mind of it's own now. I've already have lost 2 lbs and lots of inches! A funny thing is, I haven't even started exercising again. It's all been from what I eat.

I am not saying that you have to follow this diet too. It's just a great one for me. If you are interested click on this link to see recipes and many other things. If you want to buy the books...I would recommend going to amazon or look around for the best price ( I just got out of college and my husband in grad school for his masters...which means we are don't have lots of money).

Wish me luck!!! I really hoping that this is it! 

We Made A Decision

Today I went to the doctors. I was kind of nervous and what not for it being something that is such a big decision. Logan and I did decide to try the Clomid. Dr. Wheeler also talked to me how to take the stuff and what it does.

So now she is putting me on the Clomid. But since I have not had a period since August so is also going to put me Provera. Provera is more medicine but it makes you body have a period. So she wanted me to take the Provera to get my body going and than take the Clomid. I was also asked today if Logan has ever got checked. I was surprised when she asked. I would never thought of having Logan get checked since we already got pregnant once.(Don't take this wrong) But than I thought "what if that was just a fluke and what if that is the reason why I had the miscarriage in the first place?". I know that sounds bad but I really didn't mean it in a rude way. Dr Wheeler and I both thought that I should do a few rounds to see if anything happens. If not, then she is going to send us to a specialist.

 I think the only reason why I never thought of taking it is the fact that I am scared of medicine recently. When I got diagnosed a few years back I was told that I wouldn't be able to have kids...and while I was getting my insulin resistance treated I have huge side affects, one which make it very hard to breath. I guessing that I am scared that something will go wrong again. But this is a big decision for us.

I also told my Doctor today that both of my parents were twins and she was surprised (I thought I told her once). She said that we may have twin even without any help one day than. But my next appointment is at the beginning of they year Jan. 17th unless something good or bad happens in the next few months.

August 16th - Doctor's visit

I will say this now...this one will be very short. I do not remember a lot about this one because Korey's and Stefanie's wedding was two days later and than two days after that we went to Cali to visit Logan's brother Nathan and his family (another post that I am hoping to get to).

Doctor will talk to me about another diet that I should try. It's called the Palio diet (I think that's the name)....? Pretty much I would be cutting out dairy and breads and eating lots a legumes (including lots of beans...). I've been trying it, but I always get headaches and bread always seems to make it go away. Why you may ask? To tell you the truth...I do not know. I think it may be due to the fact that recently I've been having smoothies for breakfast.

She also commented on that fact that my body is starting to portion out better. I guessing that's due to the fact that I started on Callanetics (which I have recently been slacking off on) and Zumba (which I'm slacking off on too). I've was eating a lot healthier but with all the traveling that I have done this summer it may take me about a month to get back to what I used to eat. I've also notice that my clothes are fitting really weird now due to the inches that I'm losing.

We also talked about fertility medicine. Logan and I have both decided to go on clomid for 2 reasons: 1) It will help with my PCOS problem of  not releasing the eggs and 2) We would LOVE to start our family. The doctor was going to put me on it right after that appointment but I told her that Logan and I wanted to wait until October - November time due to the fact that Logan has his second conference trip in Italy and I kind of wanted to go with him because it will probably the only time that we will ever go on a big trip like that before having kids. So the doctor and Logan let me make a choice on when to start it and I chose October.

That's pretty much all I can remember from the trip. My next appointment is schedule on Oct. 4th to make some finally decisions and to see how I doing now that I'm not traveling a lot.

May Weight Goals

Last month I weighed 181 lbs at the beginning and at the beginning of this month I weighed 184 lbs. I've also lost a lot of inches around my belly and I keep getting ask how much weight have I lost but in reality I've gain some. It kind of like a bitter-sweet feeling to me. To tell you the truth, I'm still kind of depress about not being able to lose the weight like I have but than I've been think about when I lost all the weight in the last year of high school. I had started to lose the weight by losing the inches first and than the weight just keep on dropping off. I'm really hoping that's what happening. I know the weight that I've gain is also muscles....but why must you gain weight in order to lose it??? Wait...I know the reason but it's just a pain in my butt. I've also notice that I've been having a hard time eating right just because we are so busy that most weeks we don't get to the store for fresh food. I guess we will see what next month holds for me. ^-^

Doctor Visit 6/14/12

This visit was much...well, actually it was in a way. This visit was also very fast too just because I email my doctor a lot now. We talked about trying callenatics into my workout schedule. I guess it was a very big thing back in the 80's and it works just as my or even better than zumba...I'm not sure.

We also talked about lowering my thyroid medicine again since I was doing so good. My weight hasn't really changed from the last time I visited the doctors. I'm thinking it may not happen until september...we will have to see how things go.

The other thing that we talked about was about me taking fertility medicine...this to me is a very big decision. I don't want to take this lightly just because if I do take it there is a huge risk for me just because of the health conditions within my family. I'm kind of not leaning towards it but I'm not really sure. The doctor agreed to wait until we felt comfortable with the idea before doing it. Mostly...we may end up with multiples. Don't get me wrong. I would love it if it's just twins but there is no way that I will know that it's just twins instead of triples or more.

Next visit August 16 at 4pm. Update again than.

Doctor's visit 4/12/2012

So this last appointment was just to see how I am doing physically and emotionally. I was still having a hard time with everything mostly about the baby. Anyways, my dr. and I talked about a few things. She started me back on chase tree again to see if that helps with my cycles to get them going again. She also talked to me about starting to exercising again. I also thought it would be good too. She explained to me that if I get pregnant before losing some weight it would be fine with her because that's also one of the goals we put down when I first saw her and she really understands how I feel recently about the hold thing. My thyroid was doing great. It when back to normal too.

She also decide since I'm doing great that she will start see me every 3 months just because right now we are fighting to lose the weight and everything else is going great. My next appointment is on Flag Day (June 14th) around 4:00. I hope everything is still going great when I go to see her than. ^-^

Weight Goals for March

I know this is half a month late but at least I am doing now with everything going on.

So this last month was kind of weird with everything that was going on. At the beginning of this month I was 179. Beginning of last month, I think I was about the same size too. I haven't really done a lot of moving around and what not. With the miscarriage, I was not myself at all. I didn't really exercise like I am suppose to. I do know that my pant size has gone down...I think about 2 sizes but I'm not sure.

Well, there you go. Simple, sweet and to the point. ^-^ I will let everyone know about this month here soon.

Decision Made

So on my last post, I talked about how my doctor wants me to either wait a month or until I lose 20 lbs...well, I think I've finally made a decision on it. And to tell you the truth...it's going to one of my harder ones. I've been thinking about this really hard since I last saw the doctor.

I've....yes, just me (Logan was either way which didn't help much)...have decided that I am going to wait and go back to my main goal when I started to see Dr.Wheeler. I have to get down to my goal weight or half way before I think about having a baby. Right now I have about 40 lbs left to lose to get me in the 130's. I want to have it all gone though. I was talking to my sister (who by the way when through her own health problems like IR, Cervix Cancer and what not...which she has cured/is able to control them). She talked about how easier it would be for me to control my conditions if I had lost all the weight and manage to get everything under control. Plus it would also help out with the pregnancy itself. When I thought about this I thought that there was no way that I was going to be able to get through another miscarriage the way that I did this time...it would just be too hard for me and I would probably end up in depression for a while. With losing all the weight or even half, it would be easier for me to hold the baby full term too. It will also give me a chance to do a full body detox which I have been meaning to do for a while.

I know that I am going to have troubles along the way but I really think this is what I am suppose to do. I may get down a lot about everyone having a second, third or maybe even fourth kid but I know in the end, I will be healthy and happy and so will my kids.

Doctor's visit 3/16/12

So....I had another doctor's visit on the 16th. I was called in early because I was actually suppose to be seeing her on the 22nd. I got there to find out that they didn't have my next appointment on the 22nd but on the 5th of April because it was cancel or something like that while they moved to their new place. Anyways, one of the most important reasons why she asked me to come in early was because so have some thing that she just learn about that she wanted to go over with me and she also wanted to put me on some more supplements that will help me. I didn't really get bad news but it really wasn't great news either about my health. The miscarriage has done a lot of good things for me but it also has it's bad things too. I've lost a lot of weight when I lost the baby...I got down to 176 lbs and now I have gone back up to 180 lbs. My body is having a hard time adjusting from the pregnancy...hormone wise. It also took it's toll on my thyroid so now I have a little high than I should be. The goal is to have it around 3 to 1 and right now it's at a 4.5. Dr. Wheeler also knows that it's taken an emotional toll on me for multiply reasons. 

She has put me on vitamin B3 Niacin and something to help with losing all the fat cells in my body. What the second one is for is that Dr. Wheeler explained to me that there are two types of bodies...ones that store the fat cells and are able to release them easily too or the ones when they store fat cells but have a hard time releasing them. She thinks that it will help me out a lot with losing the weight. She also said that the next time I go in (April 13th) we was going to talk about more about what will happen if I do get pregnant sometime soon. She kind of wants me to wait either a month or until I lose about 20 lbs. She's pretty positive if I lose the weight I will be easier for me to carry the baby for the full pregnancy. That's about it for now. I am hoping to get to 175 by the end of the month but we will see...most likely not. But I can hope.

February Goals

Today is the 1st of March (thank goodness!) February was such a hard month for the both of us. Anyways, so update on my heath. As you can tell from the last post, my heath is getting much better! My hormones are becoming more normal by the passing days since the miscarriage and it's really causing me to be tired most day. At the starting of January I was 185 lb...I kept that weight up to the point of losing the baby. Now I am at 178 lbs and my pants are having a harder time staying on me which is really funny. I am still working on losing some weight from my tummy since it has the most to lose and it will help out so I can move on to the next size pants I have. Also last month, Dr. Wheeler changed some things with my medicine. I am now on a personalized tincture mixture that meets my body's needs. It is so nasty tasting though! It taste as if I am drinking tree sap...well, that is what Logan says (he tired it to see what it tasted like). When I first started to drink the stuff I had to make sure that I wasn't going to throw it all back up. I also got off a lot of the supplements that I was on besides the cinnamon capsules. I still am taking my metformin for my insulin resistances and my thyroid medicine which I have already lowered once since I got put on the new tincture mixture.

By mid to late month, I will be doing another post. I have a doctor's appointment this month due to the miscarriage, the shot and the new medicine. She just wants make sure that my body is doing fine with such a quick change. Anyways, I will let you guys know what the doctor says. 

Doctor Appointment

I know that I am posting this really late but a lot of things have been going on since the beginning of the year. Anyways, on the 5th I visited my doctor for the first time this year. We had to wait for my results from the lab to see the results of my T3, T4, and TSH levels. Anyways, we sat and talked about how I felt over the Christmas holiday. I have gain 4 lbs from the holiday which I told her right off but she wasn't surprise about me gaining the weight but she was surprised that I only gain 4 lbs. She told me that all of her patients would gain an average of 10 or so.

Soon after that the office receive the results. My T3 and T4 was normal but my TSH levels were a little high but not by much either. My doctor explained to me that she was really going to work on my diet and workout route. She had me watch two movies off of Netflix: Fat, Sick, and Nearly Died and Forks Over Knifes. She than wanted me to look up a ebook from greensmoothgirl.com. These all talked about what we eat isn't always healthy and what not.

She also changed up my workout route a little. Most of you probably knows who Jillian Michaels is right...she's from the tv show called the biggest loser. Well, my doctor had me looked into her 30 day shred workout video. I've have done it a few time and it's only a 20 minutes workout but it kills me every time. She still wants me to do my aqua zumba class and the hydro-fit class but she wanted me to do the 30 days with them. I've still haven't figure out how to fit it in my daily schedule which is weird because I should be about to fit a 20 minute workout in it really easy.

We also talked about my weight goal. I told her that I wanted to go to 135 lbs. She said that was a good goal but she also wanted me to try to get in between 130 to 120 lbs. I don't think I will be able to but I will give it a try. So we talked about how much weight I should lose a week now and she wanted me to lose a lb a week...but I'm thinking that I'm going to go for 2 lbs a week so I can make it to my goal before we go to Puerto Rico in July. Last week I made the goal but this weight I've gained a lot of muscle mass so I've gain the 2 lbs back. I still have a few day before it's the end of the week but I'm working on it.