Treatment Update: 2 1/2 Weeks

So, it's been two and a half weeks since I saw Dr. Jonak. And the results are amazing! I so happy I decided to see her.

So just a little remind of what is my treatment is right now:

1. Castor oil and lavender oil with a heating pad (rice bag) for 30 minutes (I've been doing more just because it's just so calming and comfortable. I usually doing this on Saturday, Sunday and Monday nights while watching something.
2. I am eating the smoothie every other day due to two things: 1) well, it has beets in it...I don't think I need to so more about that. 2) I started to get really tired of having the same smoothie for lunch or dinner everyday.
3. I have cut out gluten and sugar from what I eat. The sugar thing is just the organic sugars. I have notice that it still makes my body haywire. I did the gluten due to having too much yeast in my body. 
4. I take emger-c with cream of tartar, c. silver, and grapefruit seed extract.
5. I am taking 3 different tincture blends under my tongue: 1) one for my adrenal glands, 2) one for the parasites in my body and 3) one for my lack of progesterone in my body.
6. Plus all the supplements that I've been taking along with my armor thyroid.

And the results:

I can testify that I now have more color in my face than before in my life. I have more energy so I do more thing around the house. I even did some weeding of the gardens in the front yard! (that is pretty big if you ask Logan.) I've lost 4 lbs since I started this treatment which has been really hard to lose anything before hand. I've not really workout at all. In fact, I probably worked out twice since I've seen her and that was aqua zumba whenever my nephew wasn't over. And to top that off, whenever I walk for more than 15 minutes it feels like I am burning so much fat! I sleep ten times better and I am sleeping on a schedule again! I go to bed before midnight too! My cravings...gone! I used to have huge cravings for salty or sweet things all the time due to the clomid and birth control I was on (not of my choice tho). My body isn't so swollen either! Especially my stomach area. I showed Logan last night how much it's gone down and he was impressed.

I can't wait to see all the results when I go back in to see Dr. Jonak again. I love that the fact that I can see the blood results with my own eyes so I can if it's work. I have 3 more weeks before I see her again. Maybe I'll get lucky and lose some more weight before than too. ^_^ I'll do another update in two weeks. I'll will post pictures of myself later one.

Making Another Decision

A lot of people know that I love my D.O. doctor and my new Gyn/OB doctor...but for some reason things just aren't connecting and working. I mean I do have an amazing gyn/ob doctor who put in the time to figure out what was really going on with my infertility problems and my d.o. who got me pregnant 6 months after I started to see her.

On top of that, I have done so much studying on PCOS, IR, Adrenal Fatigue, and Hypothyroidism (problems that are all hormonal based). I am getting so confused. I know food is my best medicine at this point but there are so many things saying this veggie is bad for your thyroid or fruits can be bad for your sugar levels. And to top it off, there are so many people in my family that are having babies. Yeah...try dealing with fertility problems when most of your siblings are expecting (who are married). That throws some very huge loops with your emotions. I even helped with my sister-in-laws baby shower which by the way I had a blast doing.

 So I decided on see a naturalpath doctor to see if I can more things figured out. I saw her Friday and let me tell you it was a great thing to go see her. By the way, her name is Dr. Karie Jonak. Anyways, let's say that it was amazing what she found out in 10 minutes.  There's a whole list full of stuff plus what I have already! Here is the list of things that she discover that was going on in my body.

• Borderline anemia (most likely due to lack of copper)
• 2 type of parasites
•  Yeast
• Bacteria
• Mold 
• Not enough enzymes 
• Metal toxin buildup
• Adrenal glands are shot (very badly too)
• Intestines are a little back up due to the lack of enzymes
• inflammation from pelvis up to my head

On the plus side, she commented on my white blood cells and uterus. She said that my white blood cells were amazing! And my uterus looks great even with all the hormonal problems I have. And while she was look at my blood and the map of my body (by blood) I got to see everything and understand why my body is doing what it is doing. I would say that I would send anyone to her.

Anyways, she give me a list full of stuff to do for a few things so I don't over whim myself with treatments. Here is what she is having me do right now until the next time on May 19th.

• Adrenal support tincture blend - take 10 drops under the tongue in the morning and through out the day whenever my body is about to crash...usually up until about 5:30 pm or it has me up until 1 in the morning.
• Sarsparilla formula tincture blend - this blend is just for my lack of progesterone in my body. It is from the sarsparilla root and is a lot easier on the than progesterone cream. I take 10 drops under the tongue 3 times a day. 
• Parasite Formula tincture blend - this one is for a the parasites in my body...take 10 drops under the tongue morning and night and keep it under my tongue for a minute. 
• Smoothie - this smoothie that I am to take daily has a beet, carrots, celery, strawberries to taste, lemon (peeled), 1/2 cup of papaya and 1 tbsp of papaya seeds. This is suppose to help with the borderline anemia, getting more enzymes in my body and digestive system. She told me to get the papaya from Mexico because the other ones have lots of GMOs in them.
• Castor oil package - I have to put this on my area where I have my ovaries and uterus at. It will help with the metal buildup in that area. What I do is take an old towel and soak it in castor oil with a few drops of lavender essential oil (helps with healing) put it in that area then wrap it with plastic wrap and put a hot rice bag on top of it. What this is suppose to do is help open up my tubes and get the cysts to go away. I guess I will see when I go back to Dr. Merrill for an ultrasound. 
• Emergen "C" package - I am suppose to combine it with cream of tartar, grapefruit seed oil, and sliverboitics. This is suppose to help with lots of stuff...to tell you the truth I forgot what it did but it does something that helps.

AS of Saturday afternoon, I have so much energy! I feel great and happy. Not really feeling sick or tired which I am loving! I've never had results this fast in any treatments! I am so happy. I have caught up on a lot of stuff and still catching up on things. I can even help Logan out more getting the garden ready to plant all the seeds we have. I have been trying to talk Logan to go in and see Dr. Jonak for his skin condition. I will see if I can get him to. I can't wait to see the end results of this now.

Meeting Dr. Merrill and Making Plans

Well, I know this is late but at least I am posting about it now. ^-^

Anyways, it was really fast. I got there and checked in, went to the back talked to the nurse about my conditions and what I was taking and meet up with Carrie (I think I just going to call her that because it's easier for me). By the way, the new office looks amazing and it's so big too. 

I meet with Dr. Carrie Merrill and I am so happy that my sister talked me into going and seeing her. Once I introduce myself and let her know that it was my sister who talked about my condition. She asked me a few questions about my thyroid and how it was going. I told her about having a adrenal fatigue now and that I was support it with some supplements. She asked me if I have taken clomid before and I told her that I had. After talking about my conditions and what-not for about 10 minutes, she told me what she wanted to do. She was going to have me get a HSG test to see if my tubes are block and to have some blood drawn for an ovulation assessment test. When I hit cycle day 10 I would be having ultrasounds to see how my ovaries do with producing follicles and releasing the eggs up to when I ovulated.

I have heard that after a hsg test that lots of women get pregnant. I love and hate that fact but who cares as long as it works and enables me to get pregnant. I will post later about how everything when. 

Update on Health Problems

I will tell you that I always forget why I love my doctor so much. To tell you the truth I do not like doctors at all (if you couldn't tell). I don't know why but for some reason I just do not like doctors.

Anyways, this morning was hard for me to get up because I only got about 3 hours. I had to take Logan to work and then when home to eat breakfast. When I got to the office I was falling asleep in the chair in the front office and when I was back in the room waiting for Dr. Wheeler. I will tell you that I didn't even wait for 5 minutes before she got to the room. When she walked in the room she could just tell that there was a problems.

After we started to talk about, I explained what kind of symptoms I was having and everything that she need to know that I was doing for my health. I will tell you I felt like crying the whole time I was there because I am just so done with everything that has to do my health. Dr. Wheeler said that my body isn't responding to the thyroid medicine. She said that she wanted to up the dose from what I have been on. I told her that it was fine but I wanted to do something that is more natural for the body. She asked if I wanted to do the Armour Thyroid. When she said that my whole body relaxed but I didn't let it because I think I may have passed out in a way. We also talked about do part of the 5-2 diet. This has to do with eating like I usually do but two days of the week I have to only take 500 calories. I talked to her about maybe just juicing those days and she said that would be great. She than told me that there is more to my health problems. She told me that it is most likely adrenal fatigue. There isn't really a test to take but it's Ok because she knew from my symptoms what was going on. So she gave me a supplement for my adrenal glands to help them go back to normal.

I will tell you that adrenal fatigue is due to some type of trauma, under a lot of stress and many more things. So my doctor subject that I should see a counselor for anxiety problems. Well, I will be truthful. I have been seeing one for 2 months now. There has been many things that I probably should have been able to deal with things like the miscarriage and more that I have to help with the grieving progress that I always just pushed off when I needed to cry. I am truly grateful that Logan was supportive about the decision in the first place. He has even joined me in one the of the sessions and it helped him understand a lot of what I have gone thru and what I am going thru right now which is a life savior for me.   

 Dr Wheeler did say that it would be a good idea to still see Dr. Merrill and have some test done and see if there are more problems with my ovaries or tubes because if they are it will take some time to fix. I will be see her next week on Tuesday and I guess I will have to see what tests and the results are. I sure am praying for some answers there for sure too.

I would say that I am very happy that things are getting figuring out now. I know that there are times when I just want answers and I want things to just go back to normal before I started getting sick but there are things that I need to know or learn before I need to more on with life. We sure do have a wild ride for life.

More Problems...AGAIN!!

I swear that my life is never problem-free. There is always something happening that we didn't expect or want to happen...mostly my health.

For the last month I have been really sick and it's not been easy either. Finally, last week I called into my doctor and let her know that I think that my medicine wasn't working anymore because I felt like it was the same as before I was diagnose with my hypothyroidism. Let me remind you what I have. I have been diagnose with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), Insulin Resistance, Hypothyroidism and a infertility problem. Right now I am fighting (still) PCOS, Hypothyroidism and infertility problems. Due to the fact that I know (well, thought) but my doctor said that it wasn't my thyroid and didn't really answer my question about what are mine options were. Well, she said that it's more likely that there was another problem. Really? REALLY?! Have I not gone through enough in five years but now I have to deal with it more. I am tired of one doctor saying there is this problem while others say there are these problems. Well, I am soooo tired of it. I want answers NOW.

Logan and I have both agreed that we can't take this much more. We want to move on with our lives but we can't do that due to the fact that my health is causing so much problems for us. We have decided that if my doctor after 2 years (and the only one that was able to help get me pregnant) can't give me answers or something that feel like should happen. We decided to see two more doctors. Well, an ob/gyn named Dr. Carrie Merrill because she heard about me and my problems and asked if she could help me out. And the other one is a naturopath doctor. This doctor may be more on the natural side (which is the best feeling in the world) but she specialize in hormonal problems and is my older sister's doctor when it comes to hormonal problems. Amanda has told me she has been amazing and so helpful.

Anyways, the day after I left this note to my doctor, she order some blood test. I got them done the next following day. I found out that she asked for hemoglobin (I think I spelled that right) count, blood count, liver and kidney functions, and a thyroid panel. Friday came around and I went to the my doctor's office to get the results and the first thing I looked at was the thyroid panel results...guess who was right! I think I would know my body by now. But soon after I notice that my AST level was low or considered low by 5 points. The first thing that came to my mind was "what is AST level?" So I started looking it up and found out is has to do with the liver. It is one of the two proteins that does a lot of things for the liver. Then I made a wrong decision on my part...I decided to see what can cause this. I will never do something like this again. There were so many freaking things that I just had to stop looking at answers. I can tell you that I will wait until I see the doctor at the appointment for the results. I will never do that again...unless it has to do with a pregnancy.
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Anyways, my appointment is actually Wednesday at 10:30am. I will say that I am worry but I am trying to not worry so much. I will eventually figure out what the test results means anyway. I will post what will happen at the appointment and what decision we decided to take.

Our 5th Anniversary Trip

Yup that's right! WE have now been married for FIVE years and still have who knows how long we have together...actually we do...eternally. ^_^

Anyways, at first we didn't know where or what we wanted to do for our big anniversary. We have no clue what to do for it. So we posted on Facebook that we wanted to do something fun for our anniversary but something close to home so that if something happen to Aeris, we will be able to come home quickly and be able to get her to the hospital or to Logan's Uncle.

Anyways, we got some replies but nothing we haven't done before. So, Logan and I sat down one night and talked about what we can do. We came up with a few ideas but we didn't want to have to plan out the whole  weekend in case I get sick. So we decided to go to Salt Lake Area. We ended up stay at a hotel in Sandy, Utah and travel around that area and up north a little too.

We actually got out of town late...it was more in the afternoon than morning like we had hope for but who cares. We ended up making a few stops on our way out. Afterwards, we ended up stopping in Pocatello due to the fact that ISU owes us some money. So we stop, ate lunch, and than stop at the school to get the money. I, of course, had to wait for Logan to stop talking to Dr. Williams. We was able to get to the hotel in one piece. We went to the South Towne Center Mall in South Jordan, Utah which was 3 minutes away from the hotel along with a Super Target which made life easier for us.

I never really like shopping a lot but it was a lot of fun. I've been looking for an Asian wall folding fan for the house. I haven't really found one that I like until we hit the mall in South Jordan. I was so happy to see that there was an Asian store! You really can't find too many Asian stores around in this part of the States. Anyways, I was able to find a fan that I love! It is amazing. The design of the fan had three different colors that it has...blue/purple, red, and yellow. I decided to get the one with blue and purple. Again this fan is breath taking to me. We haven't decided on where to put it yet but it's going to make the house look amazing.


We also found a game that has two things that dad loves.

The following day we didn't get out of the hotel until noon because we really needed to get some sleep. After we got out, we went and had some fun playing miniature golf. Logan keep making jokes about me trying to actually play golf. He thought that it would be funny watching me hit people with the golf balls like I almost did in High School. He got such a good laugh out of it. We played two rounds the route for the Light House and the Haunted House too. He won The Haunt House route by 8 points and I won The Light House by 3 points. Because we went there we got coupons to go to cold stone for ice cream. On our way to the hotel to put the ice cream in the freezer, we saw the top of the South Jordan Temple. So I asked if we could go there and take a quick picture. While we was there, we ran into a great surprise. We ran into President Wright who used to be our branch leader in the single's wards. We was so happy to see him once again. And after he left, I was surprised. I realized that at every anniversary we always see a new temple...even by accident.

We then went to two different malls. One of them, we got some things for my nephew (hopefully named what they like the most). I will call him baby D. Anyways I got him two outfits that are so cute from Carter's store. I wouldn't mind going there once I find out and when I do get pregnant. I also got both outfits for cheap too. I also found an onies that I just had to have so I brought it with Logan's blessings.

After we walked out of the store, I realize that there are a few birthdays coming up...Amanda's (mine sister), Shami's and than Brooke's. So, I started to go birthday shopping and wasn't really able to find anything. We wanted to go to other malls and IKEA but unfortunately we ran out of time Saturday. So we went to Sunday after we checked out of the hotel. I was able to find a present for one of the people's birthday but not all which sucks. Anyways, I also found a vinyl store with so many sayings that I cried at some of them. Anyways, we went to IKEA and found some great things but we want to wait and figure out what we want to do with the house before we go crazy and buy things. It took us 2 hours to get through that store tho.

In the end, it was great anniversary trip. We had a lot of fun and time together.

Starting My Own Treatment

As most of you know I have been really looking into doing natural progesterone cream. I have done hours on hours of studying this cream. I have read reviews, articles, and books about it. I have even went to a someone who does the cream. And now I have finally decided on what I am going to do. I will be doing this treatment mostly alone besides the few blood or saliva test that will be need to keep track of my hormones...maybe even a thyroid panel.

So basically I am going to suppress my hormone to make it think that I am pregnant. I will be doing this for about 3 to 4 months than letting my body ovulate again and see how it reacts to the change in hormones. I will not ovulate during the time period of suppressing my hormones due to the fact that the progesterone cream will stop ovulation. I will be applying the natural progesterone cream morning and night on my skin where there is less skin. This will help with the cream getting thru the skin faster to get into my blood which than can be taken to where it is needed. I will be applying a lesser dose in the morning and adding what I didn't used into the evening does due to the fact that the progesterone cream helps you with your sleeping problems. Also when I apply it, I will have to make sure that I rotate areas each time I apply a dose of cream. I will also have to not apply it to the areas on my body that has to much fatty cells because it can make it harder to get thru the skin to the blood. For me since I have the PCOS, I have to start applying it on cycle day 5 thru cycle day 28. I will stop applying it for a few days so that I can start my period and finish it...which in case I would start back up on the cream.

Now, I also have to get back to working out daily for 5 days a week...somedays will have to be weight training too. I will have to keep on top of this because the progesterone cream can help me lose weight because it's balancing out my hormones. I will also have to go back to eat clean now that we are starting to get settle in here in the house. I will have to make sure to stay on top of my weekly shopping trips.

Now its back to the waiting game for me...well, different one anyways. I just hope this works because I am at my ends. I will up date every month. Wish me good luck!

The End of the Cleanse with Results

Well guess what! I finally finished my cleanse/detox! It has helped so much! I am thinking of doing this every year with the results that I have gotten. I know that every time will have different results but it will help me in a long run no matter what I do.

Anyways, I've lost at least 5 inches (mostly around my tummy) around my body and up to 10 lbs lost (I am now down to 165). I feel so skinny (even tho I know that it's not much be it sure has boost my confidences)! I have been looking in the mirror and seeing myself has a different yet same me that I've not seen in a while. Logan has even commented on a lot how I seem more like myself a little. I would recommend everyone doing it at least once a year doing some type of cleanse or detox or both. I have even decided to add in more vegetables and fruit. I think that I may have a gluten-intolerance but I will have to work on that when we get back from Italy. The most funny thing out of this whole this is that I crave salads all the time! Logan thinks this soooo funny!

I will probably doing this again but for 3 days after we get back from Italy.

Day 5 Of Young and Raw Cleanse

So here is how I am doing on this detox.

Day 2: I would have to say that this day was one of the hardest days. I had so many cravings like chicken. It was really weird. A lot of things didn't really tasted very good to me either. I got really grumpy and upset. I didn't like how everyone was cooking all these things that I would eat. It made it ten times harder to be good and follow the cleanse like I am supposed to. Besides getting really annoyed and grumpy, most of the day I felt ok besides the on and off of energy. I wasn't able to finish the last meal...actually I should say that it was time for bed before I could make the last meal.

Day 3: I would have to say that on this day...I was the sickest so far. I felt like throwing up so much, had really bad headaches, and more. I was also sensitive to lights and the sunlight that is coming from the windows. I was able to eat all the meals. I really loved the blueberry hemp smoothies that I had a few hours before dinner. I will probably make that some more after I get with this cleanse.

Day 4:This day was the first day that I really got dressed since I started the cleanse. My pants on kind of lose again. I am happy that it is working out like it supposed to. At the end of the end I had cravings for coconut butter popcorn.

Day 5:I have to say that last night's dinner was gross! I don't think that will ever have that again. besides that it was pretty good. I also did a detoxing bath to help my skin. It's been getting a lot of bumps on my face. I don't think its acne but it something.

I am always fighting to get energy back somehow. Most days it is hard from me to do things just due to the fact that I don't ever really have enough energy to do anything. I have notice that my body is now no longer sleeping more than 8 or 9 hours of sleep which means that I can actually get up by 9:30 instead of the common 11:00-12:00.

Day 1 of Young and Raw Cleanse

Yesterday I started the young and raw cleanse. For me, this is my first time doing something like this...so due to this I feel really sick due to all the toxin releasing in my body.

Anyway, I do have to say that some of the meals are not something I would eat daily...some of them are just plain gross. I can even say that I will never be a vegetarian. But than again there are some surprising recipes that I just love and probably will make it after being on this cleanse. Overall, I can feel the difference that it has done for me. I don't feel as bloated anymore and my skin is starting to to show a difference also.

I am on day 2...and to tell you the truth I really want to quit this. But than I think of the benefits that it will do and than the how much I paid for food! That alone could make me stay on it. Anyways, I think I am going to go take a nap. Have a good day everyone. 

Raw Food Cleanse

I have decided to do a raw food cleanse for a few reasons. 1) it could help my health in mutliplied areas, 2) be nice to actually do one considering that I have never done one in my life you and I guess you are supposed to be doing one (full-body cleanse) every six months 3) we are putting on hold having a family due to the fact that my health is getting worst in a way and 4) my sister is going to do it with me.

Anyways, so basically I will be juicing for the first week of the cleanse (21 days). The next two weeks I will be doing juicing and raw foods. It is really important to get organic while doing this because the food itself doesn't have any chemicals on themselves. We are hoping to start this next week on Monday due to the fact that it a three week process and in four weeks I will be sitting in a lot of air ports, trying to get to Italy.  My sister also wanted to do it before she goes on a business trip to Nevada. So we shared the cost of getting the documents that we needed and are doing our study on them. I hoping that I will post how it goes afterwards and maybe some pictures but I can't promise anything really...I don't like taking pictures of myself at the moment. I also hope this will help with some of the weight loss too. I would be nice to actually get thin and fit again and stay that way.

Visit with Dr. Leavitt

So this morning (early morning), I had an appointment with Dr. Leavitt about my infertility problems. I do have to say that I am over joyed that he likes to do the cheaper stuff first than go to the bigger things. He seems like an awesome guy. He personally knows my older sister, Amanda and the best part about this doctor is that he's been through infertility himself. Anyways, here are the details.

1. I will be back on Metformin. 500mg for one week, 1000mg the following week for 2 weeks and 1500mg after that. He said that I will probably taking it until I hit 24 weeks and get an insulin test done to see if I would need to be on it the whole time or if I am fine without it. My older sister was actually ok with me going back on Metformin after asking some question about it.

2. I will also be taking Folic Acid 4 times a day. He said that by increasing the dosage amount on this vitamin will also help getting pregnant. It also helps with the development of the fetus brain too.

3. I have to stay on the clomid and provera so that I actually have cycles. He wants me to stay on the 100mg for the clomid. 

We will be doing this for 3 - 6 months and see what happens. After that time period,  he will run some test and some ultrasounds to check the my uterus and ovaries. If there he finds another problem he will probably work on that for a little while and if not than he will be having me try IUI and then IVF. When he told me the price that would cost for 4 of them, I couldn't believe it. 20,000 for 4 IVF and if none of them works I will get all the money back. 

And now I have to get a hold of Dr. Wheeler to see if she wants me to stay on some of the supplements that I am on. I will also have to test my  thyroid again to see how it is doing now. I think it's doing ok now. I have not have insomnia for a long time now. And Dr. Leavitt has agreed to communicate with Dr. Wheeler whenever I go see him. He told me that he will send all the notes from the appointment to Dr. Wheeler so that she is up to date on everything.

I am also thinking if my I have another high risk pregnancy than I may just stay with him. I don't know much about the other doctors in town but I am happy with the ones that I have right now. ^-^ Anyways, that's about it. I am going to go study up on Folic Acid so I know exactly what it does for me and getting pregnant. 

First Appointment Of The Year

This morning I went to the doctor's office. I had the feeling that I knew what was going to happen too...unfortunately I was right.

I also had to test myself to see if I was pregnant, which by the way, was negative. I had gotten a positive of the ovulation test that I have been taking. I was really happy when I got that and I started to feel like there was still hope in maybe getting pregnant this time. I guess I was wrong in a sense.

Anyways, after I finish the test, I started to finish to get ready for the appointment. I keep having this feeling that thing was not going to work out for me and that I would be heading to a specialist here soon. I kept pushing that feeling away because I was hoping that I wouldn't have to think about something like that. Dr. Wheeler and I were both getting to the office late but it was fine considering that my appointments don't take long. Even tho I knew what was going to happen...I didn't think that my thyroid would still be acting up. It got a little better but it was still too high so now I am back to switching 25mg and 50mg everyday. I guess I got some good news...the levels from the DHEA blood test came back normal. My body is no longer producing too much testosterone. That will help with losing weight a lot better. I told the doctor about the ovulation test being positive and she asked if I had tested to see if I was pregnant because today would be two weeks since than which I told her I did and it was negative. She than asked me to test again in the next few days to see if there are any changes. She even gave me an blood order to test that way. I have to decided sometime today if I should do it or not because due to the last pregnancy I will have to be put on progesterone to stabilize the pregnancy. And if it's still a no, I have to see a specialist.

Dr. Wheeler was fine with Dr. Leavitt being my choice for a specialist. He and his wife had fertility problems too. Plus she thinks he would be the best option out there for me. I plan on calling the Dr. Leavitt office tomorrow and asking for a consultation with the Doctor about what treatments he would think of doing and money wise. I can only hope that he will understand that I don't know how much longer I can keep going.

I also got really bad news tonight. My Great Grandma is dying...I cried for hours yesterday due to that and the infertility specialist. I still will be crying for a few more days. I am an emotional wreck and it's going to take me a while to calm down.

Anyways, while I was driving around yesterday I was listening to some christian music station...air1. Every time I jumped into the car there was this one song. It keep playing over and over again in my head. Not the whole song but just  a phase from it. "Hold on to the promises"....I have been promise many things from Heavenly Father and right now it the only thing I can do that is keeping me going. Here is the song. I figure I would let you guys here it to. It's a really nice song with a great story to it.

2nd Round

I am now getting ready for the second round of clomid. I have just finished the Provera (which wasn't as bad this time as last time) a few days ago. I still had sometimes where I couldn't control my emotions but I think I am getting a hang on controlling them better. I thought it was going to be just as bad as last time but I lucked out.

I will be starting the clomid here soon in a few days. I hope the 2nd round of clomid will do the trick so I don't have to worry about going to a specialist...but I have a feeling that I will be going anyways. I guess it just one of the things that I will have to do to have kids.

Anyways, in 3 weeks I go in for the blood testing. I will not lie...I am very worry. I don't really want my body getting worst. I've been working hard for 3 years to make it healthier and I just beginning to understand it too along with nutrition too.

Unexpected Doctor Visit

Today I was called into my doctors office. Which to most people means something bad...in this case, I would have to say the same thing.

A few weeks ago I was having really bad insomnia for a few weeks, so I decided to have the doctor's office order some blood test for my thyroid to see what was going on. That was about 2 weeks ago. I didn't hear from her last week either about the test. Also, the clomid didn't work what-so-ever this round. I didn't even end up having a period (sorry for tmi). So early this week I called in and left my doctor with the report about the clomid and some questions. I figured this week she would call me back because she been really busy recently.

Well, I was right about getting called back. I was told to come in at 12:30 because my doctor wanted to talk to me face to face about everything that was going on. I got to the doctors and waited a little bit due to the fact that I wasn't really schedule to have an appointment today and it was just suppose to be a quick visit. While I was waiting, I was wondering what I would do if I had to be sent to a specialist or even if we can afford one. Well, as soon as I got in with her, she told me some pretty bad news. Let me remind you that I have a hypothyroidism...which means that it doesn't produce enough to support the body. Well, it turns out that it at the lowest level for the test but the other two where perfect. My doctor was so confused.

So we went over everything after I started the Provera and Clomid and she was still confused with everything. She told me that this doesn't usually happens. We than talked about what has been happening in my life to see if there was something there that caused it but I couldn't really think of one. She talked about how I am looking so much better overall and my hormones are going back to normal from this. And what's really weird us out is the fact that I have lost 10 lbs in the last 2 months instead of gaining it back.

What she decided to do was put me back on the Provera to start my cycle and up the dosage of my Clomid to 100mg to see if this helps. In a little over a month I have to go get some more blood test done to see how my body is doing. If it's the same or worst she is going to sent me to a specialist. She doesn't want to wait for another year because we have been trying for so long now. But if they are a little better or great than she will try another round of clomid (that's if I start the next cycle on my own). If not...off to the specialist I go. My doctor thinks that there may be another problems somewhere that we have not discover yet but the only way of know that is if I go. So I'm guessing that in the next 3 months I will be see one no matter what (unless I get pregnant).

I keep wondering why I've been having such a hard time with this and so many other things this year. I've had been given trials to me through out my life but this year has to be the most packed full of them. I just guess I still have a lot of rough edges that need polish off better or something like that. I just hope that I am about to go through all this with a smile or just lots of hope.

Starting Another Blog

I've decided to start another blog...but for a different reason. I was going to use this one as a workout journal and keeping health. With the new diet I will be working out a lot and will need to keep track of my process somehow and since I'm on here so often, why not do a blog. Plus everyone will be able to read it so if they even need some guidance about something that involving working out, they can go there. I’m still working on getting it started with all the facts but I am doing the journaling too. It may take a while to make it same like it’s doing its job. 

I am also hoping this will help me make sure that I keep on track with eating healthy too. I’m tired of feeling sick all the time so I may as well eat like I want to get health again. Anyways, you are welcome to follow me in my new adventure.

10x Harder

I wonder why some times I want to involve my husband about getting health. Don't get me wrong, I love doing it with him but...he's a guy. MOST guys don't usually like doing things like changing your diet (especially when it comes to stuff that they love...like food).

With this diet I had to cut out some major stuff that he enjoys a lot but not only of his but mine too. I feel bad but I really am tried of being sick all the time and want to get health. As of yet this is the only one that I had great results within a week of doing it. Not only did I lose weight but I also felt great! I was up and about and ready for the day before 9!

But what really gets me is that every meal that I make Logan always ask for something that he knows that he can't have. It's getting really annoying and I just want to give up on the whole thing especially for the day too. I don't know why but it makes me so mad that I feel like I don't want to do anything productive. I mean...I let him eat pretty much whatever he wants if we are eating at a family's house so he can enjoy it once in a while. I really can't complain since he's dropped 20 lbs in the last 2 1/2 months (which is not fair!) while I've only drop the 7 lbs in the last month.

I just don't know how to get it across to him to how important this is to me. I even bought him a book just for him to help him understand how the whole diet goes (it's for the men who try this diet) but he has of yet read one day on it (due to the fact of school and work). I hope it gets through here soon...because the holidays are coming and it's going to get a lot hard now.

Starting to Workout....Again

I have just recently started to workout...again. I am hoping to really stick to it this time.

I am not only doing cardio but weight training...which scary me because the whole idea of weight training is new and makes me think of these huge, ripped guys. But I am going to do my best. Right now I am working on getting back into the water workout. I will be doing laps or the water aerobics. I am hoping to at least start with one workout as weight training. I'm really hoping to see improvements quick but than again everyone is different. I guess I will have to wait and see the results myself next month. Wish me luck!

The Eating-Clean Diet

In the last month (I am not sure when exactly), I came across this great "diet" (life changing...I not a person who looks into any yo-yo diets).


Not many (or many of you) have heard about the "The Eat-Clean Diet". I was one of the many that didn't know about this diet. I was already eating pretty health (well, from what I learned by myself), but my doctor want me to keep changing diets just because we couldn't find the right one for my body. The diet she wanted me to look at was the Paleo Diet..it cuts out a lot of good nutrient and I didn't feel as if was for me. While looking up this diet, I ran across eat-clean. I had a hard time researching it online so I order the "Just the Rules: The Eat-Clean Diet". Once I got it I had it read within the day. It was nuts. I went from "ok...lets see what this one has to offer" to "I want to start now!" IN THE MANNER OF MINUTES. With my college degree, I understand that this is one of the best diets that I have even read about. It does not cut out any of the food groups but it does cut out the processed, overly sugar and toxic foods that we all love and want.

It's only been a few days since I started but my cravings (you know: chocolate, ice cream and what-not) have almost disappear!! I no longer in need for these things. Yes, once in a blue moon I wall enjoy them but only for special occasions like holidays and birthdays. And the other best part of this whole thing is that I am always full and happy. I don't ever over eat anymore due to the fact that my stomach has a mind of it's own now. I've already have lost 2 lbs and lots of inches! A funny thing is, I haven't even started exercising again. It's all been from what I eat.

I am not saying that you have to follow this diet too. It's just a great one for me. If you are interested click on this link to see recipes and many other things. If you want to buy the books...I would recommend going to amazon or look around for the best price ( I just got out of college and my husband in grad school for his masters...which means we are don't have lots of money).

Wish me luck!!! I really hoping that this is it! 

My Small Blessings

Last week (or was it the week before???) Logan went in and got tested. We received great news that there was nothing wrong with Logan. Everything was perfect. I was so happy for him! That was one less thing to worry about.

But than I realized that it was all my fault that we don't have kids yet. I was miserable. I don't think I was so miserable in my life besides for the miscarriage. I went for a day or so before trying to talk to someone about it. I have some friends who are in the same problem as us. So I decided to write her. I let her know how I felt and everything. I was really surprised when a few hours later not only did she message me back but she was very supportive about the whole thing. And what makes it even better is she gave me a few talks to read. I cried after reading them. I was so happy that I wasn't in this alone and that this friend was willing to help me out even tho she is struggling too. I really am gratefully to her. I still have to email her back but I have a different look on things now. I'm happier too. It's friends like them that are truly a blessing. ^-^ And all my friend who are always supportive of me with everything I do. YOU all are truly my small BLESSINGS.