(This post is just me ranting off some very heavy stress. If you don't want to know about it, go ahead and skip over this post.)
As many of you know, we have been having a very hard time getting pregnant due to my PCOS. Well, today I had one of THOSE moments. I heard about women who have babies and they are twice my size or something along those lines. Then I hear about women how have worst conditions then me like cancer who are still able to get pregnant without any problems. This really makes me blow a fuze.
I love my ward. They are all amazing and I care for them. But today I heard a story about a lady who had a child after she was worked on her thyroid cancer. Right then I just really wanted to scream out loud. Don't get me wrong. I am happy that family was able to have such a little miracle to help them through some hard times. Blame the hardships for the pain right?
I just don't get why I have to deal with people who say "oh, it must not be your time" or "it will happen eventually, promise" or the most famous one that I keep getting "do you really want to deal with kids or even have them?" That saying comes a lot from people outside of the church and I really want to smack them. Sometime I even get "the Lord doesn't give you more than you can handle"...wrong. That is the only way the Lord can test you. Think about it people.
I really want our children. I had to go thru huge changes in my life on top of a miscarriage and dealing with the hardships of getting pregnant when everyone around me is and some very stupid doctors. It has been over 2 years since I have had the miscarriage. The memory is still very fresh in my head and it will be for a very long time. Let this be a ward to people who don't know the hardships of infertility, don't just assume that things will work out for other and telling them that. Just be there and listen to what they have to say...it will help in more ways than one. Promise.
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Sunday, March 16, 2014
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Meeting Dr. Merrill and Making Plans
Well, I know this is late but at least I am posting about it now. ^-^
Anyways, it was really fast. I got there and checked in, went to the back talked to the nurse about my conditions and what I was taking and meet up with Carrie (I think I just going to call her that because it's easier for me). By the way, the new office looks amazing and it's so big too.
I meet with Dr. Carrie Merrill and I am so happy that my sister talked me into going and seeing her. Once I introduce myself and let her know that it was my sister who talked about my condition. She asked me a few questions about my thyroid and how it was going. I told her about having a adrenal fatigue now and that I was support it with some supplements. She asked me if I have taken clomid before and I told her that I had. After talking about my conditions and what-not for about 10 minutes, she told me what she wanted to do. She was going to have me get a HSG test to see if my tubes are block and to have some blood drawn for an ovulation assessment test. When I hit cycle day 10 I would be having ultrasounds to see how my ovaries do with producing follicles and releasing the eggs up to when I ovulated.
I have heard that after a hsg test that lots of women get pregnant. I love and hate that fact but who cares as long as it works and enables me to get pregnant. I will post later about how everything when.
Anyways, it was really fast. I got there and checked in, went to the back talked to the nurse about my conditions and what I was taking and meet up with Carrie (I think I just going to call her that because it's easier for me). By the way, the new office looks amazing and it's so big too.
I meet with Dr. Carrie Merrill and I am so happy that my sister talked me into going and seeing her. Once I introduce myself and let her know that it was my sister who talked about my condition. She asked me a few questions about my thyroid and how it was going. I told her about having a adrenal fatigue now and that I was support it with some supplements. She asked me if I have taken clomid before and I told her that I had. After talking about my conditions and what-not for about 10 minutes, she told me what she wanted to do. She was going to have me get a HSG test to see if my tubes are block and to have some blood drawn for an ovulation assessment test. When I hit cycle day 10 I would be having ultrasounds to see how my ovaries do with producing follicles and releasing the eggs up to when I ovulated.
I have heard that after a hsg test that lots of women get pregnant. I love and hate that fact but who cares as long as it works and enables me to get pregnant. I will post later about how everything when.
Friday, March 29, 2013
Called In Early
This morning started with me waking up to a strong impression that I should get a hold of an old friend. Funny things is, I haven't heard from her since she was married. I also have no contact number or address...besides her mom's address and I don't think her mom really like me at the moment for some reason.
Anyways, after I got right out of bed, the Dr. office asked if I wanted to reschedule to an early time like 11:30 or noon. So I picked 11:30. I let Logan know considering that he was going with me to the appointment. We got there and got to business.
Dr. Wheeler said that my thyroid is better than it has been for a long time but than again she is confused to why my thyroid not going down. So she started to talk to us about iodine replacement therapy for my thyroid. She thinks that there is a possibility that I am low on iodine. I guess iodine helps the thyroid in a way but I am not sure how yet. More studying for me! She wants me to start taking iodine once a day (just a drop...I guess a drop has 500mg of iodine in it...) and she wants me to go on the gluten-free diet (for 3 months) and see if I have a gluten problem. She said that gluten problems and infertility are common together. I don't know if that's true but whatever. I am willing to try about anything natural over western medicine. She also having me read up on the iodine therapy from a Dr. Brownstein.
After she talked about that, Logan and I asked about the low progesterone. At first, she was a little confused to the reason why we was asking about it until we told her what we found out. She than started asking me questions about my cycle. Come to find out that she did know everything that was going on with my cycles (every pcos woman symptoms are different and no one is the same). So we (Logan and I) talked more about the symptoms and what the natural progesterone cream can do for me. From the appointment, it sounded like she didn't even considered that I am be low in progesterone but now she is wondering if I am low in both estrogen and progesterone. She is willing to try the NPC if I am low on progesterone.
So now we are looking at 2 things: 1) We need to figured out if the problem is hormonal or just my thyroid or both and 2) get me off of all the medicines due to the fact I have a hard time with them.
The funniest part about the appointment today was when I told her about what Dr. Leavitt was planning on doing. She was so annoyed with him. She told me not to even worry about going back for a while. She wants to get down the problem sooner than later and Dr. Leavitt was just starting at the beginning which I have already done.
Later Logan and I went to the public library and checked out some books on gluten-free diet and meals along with one on progesterone. We also ordered some books that we wasn't able to get at the library. We will be getting those books next Tuesday. Logan and I both think that we are heading in the right direction and that soon we will figure out what is the really problem behind everything that's going on.
My next appointment is on May 9th. Before than I have to get a lot of blood test done. One is to check my thyroid levels (like normal), one to check to see if my thyroid is being attacked by my body, and one for checking my progesterone level.
Lots is going on. I just hope it's figured out soon!
Anyways, after I got right out of bed, the Dr. office asked if I wanted to reschedule to an early time like 11:30 or noon. So I picked 11:30. I let Logan know considering that he was going with me to the appointment. We got there and got to business.
Dr. Wheeler said that my thyroid is better than it has been for a long time but than again she is confused to why my thyroid not going down. So she started to talk to us about iodine replacement therapy for my thyroid. She thinks that there is a possibility that I am low on iodine. I guess iodine helps the thyroid in a way but I am not sure how yet. More studying for me! She wants me to start taking iodine once a day (just a drop...I guess a drop has 500mg of iodine in it...) and she wants me to go on the gluten-free diet (for 3 months) and see if I have a gluten problem. She said that gluten problems and infertility are common together. I don't know if that's true but whatever. I am willing to try about anything natural over western medicine. She also having me read up on the iodine therapy from a Dr. Brownstein.
After she talked about that, Logan and I asked about the low progesterone. At first, she was a little confused to the reason why we was asking about it until we told her what we found out. She than started asking me questions about my cycle. Come to find out that she did know everything that was going on with my cycles (every pcos woman symptoms are different and no one is the same). So we (Logan and I) talked more about the symptoms and what the natural progesterone cream can do for me. From the appointment, it sounded like she didn't even considered that I am be low in progesterone but now she is wondering if I am low in both estrogen and progesterone. She is willing to try the NPC if I am low on progesterone.
So now we are looking at 2 things: 1) We need to figured out if the problem is hormonal or just my thyroid or both and 2) get me off of all the medicines due to the fact I have a hard time with them.
The funniest part about the appointment today was when I told her about what Dr. Leavitt was planning on doing. She was so annoyed with him. She told me not to even worry about going back for a while. She wants to get down the problem sooner than later and Dr. Leavitt was just starting at the beginning which I have already done.
Later Logan and I went to the public library and checked out some books on gluten-free diet and meals along with one on progesterone. We also ordered some books that we wasn't able to get at the library. We will be getting those books next Tuesday. Logan and I both think that we are heading in the right direction and that soon we will figure out what is the really problem behind everything that's going on.
My next appointment is on May 9th. Before than I have to get a lot of blood test done. One is to check my thyroid levels (like normal), one to check to see if my thyroid is being attacked by my body, and one for checking my progesterone level.
Lots is going on. I just hope it's figured out soon!
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Treatment Plan
I know I haven't been up to date with my health conditions and fertility treatment. Well, for round 3 of clomid was a no and along with round 4. Here I am about to start round 5 and I have a feeling that it won't work either. Well, let's just say I can tell you it's not working for me. Every since I started the Metformin again I can't sleep hardly at all...I have no energy to do anything. As for the Provera (which induces my period) has made very period since on it 10 times worst. I always get really bad back pain...like when you get before a miscarriage and most days it won't go away until my period stops. As far as I know the Clomid is working but side effects. I get heat flashes, headaches and more things. I am tired of medicine and how they only take care of symptoms instead of the actually problem and always making me sick in someway.
So I have decided to go back to Dr. Wheeler and let her know that I just want to start over. I want to go back to the beginning of my beginning treatment plan that I had gotten pregnant on. Well, most of it. I don't want to be on any medicine anymore unless it is a huge need. I have already been working on my eating habits. I am been lacking in the department of exercising due to the fact that I have a lot of stress on me right now and we don't really have the money to do what I was doing.
I also want to try out natural progesterone cream...I think that my body isn't producing enough of progesterone (it is the hormone that helps you have your period, release your egg during ovulation and maintain pregnancy). I looked up about low progesterone and it symptoms and I have about 3/4 of what the list had to say. It is also common that after you get pregnant and have the child hormones get better and fix themselves. In a way it will be annoying that this is all I have to do. So here is what I want or need to do for the next two to three months.
1. I have an appointment with Dr. Wheeler on the 4th. She wants to talk about what the specialist has decided to do and I want to do to talk her about my decision. I will probably also ask for a progesterone test to be done. I want to know it that is the cause of everything because it will be easier to fix instead of all these things that I have been doing. Along with trying the NPC (natural progesterone cream), I want to see if there is anything else I can do to help the progesterone levels. I will also talk to her about how I feel about Dr. Leavitt.
2. I do not think I will be going back to Dr. Leavitt. He's very much into prescribing medicine for a problem instead for figuring out what is the problem. Also he said that if the clomid doesn't work that he will probably put me on a pill that helps cancer patients....I don't have cancer. I did not like that at all. I know he is a great guy and doctor but right now I need to know what is causing all these problems and to fix it so I don't have anymore miscarriages (to this date, we don't know if there as been more than the one we know about).
3. If Logan gets a job out at NRF, I will probably go see Amanda's doctor because she is a specialist in hormonal therapy (natural). Amanda has gotten so health from having her with her problem. And I am willing to go see her. I would actually go see her now but she doesn't take insurance and Logan and I do not have enough money to pay for everything that it will cost but I am going to go no matter what happens.
4. Again, if Logan gets the job, I want to do a juicing cleanse and then eat raw food for 21 days. In doing this I am hoping to jump start my body's system naturally and not cause it so much pain anymore. I am hoping that Logan will also do this with me because it's hard to do something like this alone plus it will be great for his health too. If dad is still living with us maybe I can talk him in doing it too. Who knows. I am actually get lucky.
5. For some miracle, if I get pregnant on medicine that I am on now or the NPC than that's great but I will be seeing Amanda's doctor. I am tried of being sick and not being able to control it either.
So pretty much I will eat healthy like I have been, start exercising again no matter what and come off the medicine. I just hope this works because I am going to be an aunt again but I was hoping to have a child before them...and no, it's not Amanda. I am just going to work on getting healthy like I did before. The best part of this all is that Logan is still willing to help and listen to me. He's the best guy friend and husband I will ever have.
So I have decided to go back to Dr. Wheeler and let her know that I just want to start over. I want to go back to the beginning of my beginning treatment plan that I had gotten pregnant on. Well, most of it. I don't want to be on any medicine anymore unless it is a huge need. I have already been working on my eating habits. I am been lacking in the department of exercising due to the fact that I have a lot of stress on me right now and we don't really have the money to do what I was doing.
I also want to try out natural progesterone cream...I think that my body isn't producing enough of progesterone (it is the hormone that helps you have your period, release your egg during ovulation and maintain pregnancy). I looked up about low progesterone and it symptoms and I have about 3/4 of what the list had to say. It is also common that after you get pregnant and have the child hormones get better and fix themselves. In a way it will be annoying that this is all I have to do. So here is what I want or need to do for the next two to three months.
1. I have an appointment with Dr. Wheeler on the 4th. She wants to talk about what the specialist has decided to do and I want to do to talk her about my decision. I will probably also ask for a progesterone test to be done. I want to know it that is the cause of everything because it will be easier to fix instead of all these things that I have been doing. Along with trying the NPC (natural progesterone cream), I want to see if there is anything else I can do to help the progesterone levels. I will also talk to her about how I feel about Dr. Leavitt.
2. I do not think I will be going back to Dr. Leavitt. He's very much into prescribing medicine for a problem instead for figuring out what is the problem. Also he said that if the clomid doesn't work that he will probably put me on a pill that helps cancer patients....I don't have cancer. I did not like that at all. I know he is a great guy and doctor but right now I need to know what is causing all these problems and to fix it so I don't have anymore miscarriages (to this date, we don't know if there as been more than the one we know about).
3. If Logan gets a job out at NRF, I will probably go see Amanda's doctor because she is a specialist in hormonal therapy (natural). Amanda has gotten so health from having her with her problem. And I am willing to go see her. I would actually go see her now but she doesn't take insurance and Logan and I do not have enough money to pay for everything that it will cost but I am going to go no matter what happens.
4. Again, if Logan gets the job, I want to do a juicing cleanse and then eat raw food for 21 days. In doing this I am hoping to jump start my body's system naturally and not cause it so much pain anymore. I am hoping that Logan will also do this with me because it's hard to do something like this alone plus it will be great for his health too. If dad is still living with us maybe I can talk him in doing it too. Who knows. I am actually get lucky.
5. For some miracle, if I get pregnant on medicine that I am on now or the NPC than that's great but I will be seeing Amanda's doctor. I am tried of being sick and not being able to control it either.
So pretty much I will eat healthy like I have been, start exercising again no matter what and come off the medicine. I just hope this works because I am going to be an aunt again but I was hoping to have a child before them...and no, it's not Amanda. I am just going to work on getting healthy like I did before. The best part of this all is that Logan is still willing to help and listen to me. He's the best guy friend and husband I will ever have.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Visit with Dr. Leavitt
So this morning (early morning), I had an appointment with Dr. Leavitt about my infertility problems. I do have to say that I am over joyed that he likes to do the cheaper stuff first than go to the bigger things. He seems like an awesome guy. He personally knows my older sister, Amanda and the best part about this doctor is that he's been through infertility himself. Anyways, here are the details.
1. I will be back on Metformin. 500mg for one week, 1000mg the following week for 2 weeks and 1500mg after that. He said that I will probably taking it until I hit 24 weeks and get an insulin test done to see if I would need to be on it the whole time or if I am fine without it. My older sister was actually ok with me going back on Metformin after asking some question about it.
2. I will also be taking Folic Acid 4 times a day. He said that by increasing the dosage amount on this vitamin will also help getting pregnant. It also helps with the development of the fetus brain too.
3. I have to stay on the clomid and provera so that I actually have cycles. He wants me to stay on the 100mg for the clomid.
We will be doing this for 3 - 6 months and see what happens. After that time period, he will run some test and some ultrasounds to check the my uterus and ovaries. If there he finds another problem he will probably work on that for a little while and if not than he will be having me try IUI and then IVF. When he told me the price that would cost for 4 of them, I couldn't believe it. 20,000 for 4 IVF and if none of them works I will get all the money back.
And now I have to get a hold of Dr. Wheeler to see if she wants me to stay on some of the supplements that I am on. I will also have to test my thyroid again to see how it is doing now. I think it's doing ok now. I have not have insomnia for a long time now. And Dr. Leavitt has agreed to communicate with Dr. Wheeler whenever I go see him. He told me that he will send all the notes from the appointment to Dr. Wheeler so that she is up to date on everything.
I am also thinking if my I have another high risk pregnancy than I may just stay with him. I don't know much about the other doctors in town but I am happy with the ones that I have right now. ^-^ Anyways, that's about it. I am going to go study up on Folic Acid so I know exactly what it does for me and getting pregnant.
1. I will be back on Metformin. 500mg for one week, 1000mg the following week for 2 weeks and 1500mg after that. He said that I will probably taking it until I hit 24 weeks and get an insulin test done to see if I would need to be on it the whole time or if I am fine without it. My older sister was actually ok with me going back on Metformin after asking some question about it.
2. I will also be taking Folic Acid 4 times a day. He said that by increasing the dosage amount on this vitamin will also help getting pregnant. It also helps with the development of the fetus brain too.
3. I have to stay on the clomid and provera so that I actually have cycles. He wants me to stay on the 100mg for the clomid.
We will be doing this for 3 - 6 months and see what happens. After that time period, he will run some test and some ultrasounds to check the my uterus and ovaries. If there he finds another problem he will probably work on that for a little while and if not than he will be having me try IUI and then IVF. When he told me the price that would cost for 4 of them, I couldn't believe it. 20,000 for 4 IVF and if none of them works I will get all the money back.
And now I have to get a hold of Dr. Wheeler to see if she wants me to stay on some of the supplements that I am on. I will also have to test my thyroid again to see how it is doing now. I think it's doing ok now. I have not have insomnia for a long time now. And Dr. Leavitt has agreed to communicate with Dr. Wheeler whenever I go see him. He told me that he will send all the notes from the appointment to Dr. Wheeler so that she is up to date on everything.
I am also thinking if my I have another high risk pregnancy than I may just stay with him. I don't know much about the other doctors in town but I am happy with the ones that I have right now. ^-^ Anyways, that's about it. I am going to go study up on Folic Acid so I know exactly what it does for me and getting pregnant.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
First Appointment Of The Year
This morning I went to the doctor's office. I had the feeling that I knew what was going to happen too...unfortunately I was right.
I also had to test myself to see if I was pregnant, which by the way, was negative. I had gotten a positive of the ovulation test that I have been taking. I was really happy when I got that and I started to feel like there was still hope in maybe getting pregnant this time. I guess I was wrong in a sense.
Anyways, after I finish the test, I started to finish to get ready for the appointment. I keep having this feeling that thing was not going to work out for me and that I would be heading to a specialist here soon. I kept pushing that feeling away because I was hoping that I wouldn't have to think about something like that. Dr. Wheeler and I were both getting to the office late but it was fine considering that my appointments don't take long. Even tho I knew what was going to happen...I didn't think that my thyroid would still be acting up. It got a little better but it was still too high so now I am back to switching 25mg and 50mg everyday. I guess I got some good news...the levels from the DHEA blood test came back normal. My body is no longer producing too much testosterone. That will help with losing weight a lot better. I told the doctor about the ovulation test being positive and she asked if I had tested to see if I was pregnant because today would be two weeks since than which I told her I did and it was negative. She than asked me to test again in the next few days to see if there are any changes. She even gave me an blood order to test that way. I have to decided sometime today if I should do it or not because due to the last pregnancy I will have to be put on progesterone to stabilize the pregnancy. And if it's still a no, I have to see a specialist.
Dr. Wheeler was fine with Dr. Leavitt being my choice for a specialist. He and his wife had fertility problems too. Plus she thinks he would be the best option out there for me. I plan on calling the Dr. Leavitt office tomorrow and asking for a consultation with the Doctor about what treatments he would think of doing and money wise. I can only hope that he will understand that I don't know how much longer I can keep going.
I also got really bad news tonight. My Great Grandma is dying...I cried for hours yesterday due to that and the infertility specialist. I still will be crying for a few more days. I am an emotional wreck and it's going to take me a while to calm down.
Anyways, while I was driving around yesterday I was listening to some christian music station...air1. Every time I jumped into the car there was this one song. It keep playing over and over again in my head. Not the whole song but just a phase from it. "Hold on to the promises"....I have been promise many things from Heavenly Father and right now it the only thing I can do that is keeping me going. Here is the song. I figure I would let you guys here it to. It's a really nice song with a great story to it.
I also had to test myself to see if I was pregnant, which by the way, was negative. I had gotten a positive of the ovulation test that I have been taking. I was really happy when I got that and I started to feel like there was still hope in maybe getting pregnant this time. I guess I was wrong in a sense.
Anyways, after I finish the test, I started to finish to get ready for the appointment. I keep having this feeling that thing was not going to work out for me and that I would be heading to a specialist here soon. I kept pushing that feeling away because I was hoping that I wouldn't have to think about something like that. Dr. Wheeler and I were both getting to the office late but it was fine considering that my appointments don't take long. Even tho I knew what was going to happen...I didn't think that my thyroid would still be acting up. It got a little better but it was still too high so now I am back to switching 25mg and 50mg everyday. I guess I got some good news...the levels from the DHEA blood test came back normal. My body is no longer producing too much testosterone. That will help with losing weight a lot better. I told the doctor about the ovulation test being positive and she asked if I had tested to see if I was pregnant because today would be two weeks since than which I told her I did and it was negative. She than asked me to test again in the next few days to see if there are any changes. She even gave me an blood order to test that way. I have to decided sometime today if I should do it or not because due to the last pregnancy I will have to be put on progesterone to stabilize the pregnancy. And if it's still a no, I have to see a specialist.
Dr. Wheeler was fine with Dr. Leavitt being my choice for a specialist. He and his wife had fertility problems too. Plus she thinks he would be the best option out there for me. I plan on calling the Dr. Leavitt office tomorrow and asking for a consultation with the Doctor about what treatments he would think of doing and money wise. I can only hope that he will understand that I don't know how much longer I can keep going.
I also got really bad news tonight. My Great Grandma is dying...I cried for hours yesterday due to that and the infertility specialist. I still will be crying for a few more days. I am an emotional wreck and it's going to take me a while to calm down.
Anyways, while I was driving around yesterday I was listening to some christian music station...air1. Every time I jumped into the car there was this one song. It keep playing over and over again in my head. Not the whole song but just a phase from it. "Hold on to the promises"....I have been promise many things from Heavenly Father and right now it the only thing I can do that is keeping me going. Here is the song. I figure I would let you guys here it to. It's a really nice song with a great story to it.
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
New Year (2013)
We didn't do much for the New Year. We was still so tired from Christmas. So, we decided to have a night to ourselves at home and watch Disney movies to pass the time. After midnight, I got really depressed when I realize that it's a start of another year and I still didn't have a child or one on the way. Actually it lasted for a few days because everyone was announcing that they are pregnant too. But I eventually was able to get pass it.
A few weeks later, my friend Brooklin, told me that it was our year! We will cut down all the extra weigh and I will be able to get pregnant this year. I really do hope so because I don't know how much more longer I can do this. Anyways, most posts for this blog and other ones too.
A few weeks later, my friend Brooklin, told me that it was our year! We will cut down all the extra weigh and I will be able to get pregnant this year. I really do hope so because I don't know how much more longer I can do this. Anyways, most posts for this blog and other ones too.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
2nd Round
I am now getting ready for the second round of clomid. I have just finished the Provera (which wasn't as bad this time as last time) a few days ago. I still had sometimes where I couldn't control my emotions but I think I am getting a hang on controlling them better. I thought it was going to be just as bad as last time but I lucked out.
I will be starting the clomid here soon in a few days. I hope the 2nd round of clomid will do the trick so I don't have to worry about going to a specialist...but I have a feeling that I will be going anyways. I guess it just one of the things that I will have to do to have kids.
Anyways, in 3 weeks I go in for the blood testing. I will not lie...I am very worry. I don't really want my body getting worst. I've been working hard for 3 years to make it healthier and I just beginning to understand it too along with nutrition too.
I will be starting the clomid here soon in a few days. I hope the 2nd round of clomid will do the trick so I don't have to worry about going to a specialist...but I have a feeling that I will be going anyways. I guess it just one of the things that I will have to do to have kids.
Anyways, in 3 weeks I go in for the blood testing. I will not lie...I am very worry. I don't really want my body getting worst. I've been working hard for 3 years to make it healthier and I just beginning to understand it too along with nutrition too.
Monday, December 17, 2012
Freelings of Late
From my last post...things are not looking good for my health or getting pregnant. I have a lot of emotions going through me. I know there is a lot that I have to do health-wise. But there is so much more to it. I have a lot of worries going through my head. I know I shouldn't really worry or stress about it but there's just no way that I can't worry about. Anyways, here is a list of the things that are on my mind ALWAYS:
1) This whole specialist thing: I worry about this whole specialist thing because I was able to get pregnant when I wasn't so health...but healthier than I was about 3 years ago. I am so confused. Yes it's been a year since I have gotten pregnant but there may be something that I did there that I am not doing and I've thought about it and the only thing that I was doing than that I am not doing now is I am not taking the metformin...I am starting to wonder if I really should of came off that medicine now.
2) Insurance: So Logan thought that the insurance would cover most of the money that will involved the treatment but it covers nothing. So now I have to look into getting a secondary insurance or waiting until we have insurance from Logan's new working place (he was given the ok to go get a part-time job) and seeing if they cover anything. If not than we will have to talk to the doctor's office (which ever one I end up going to) about not being on insurance and seeing if they will reduce the price for us in a way. If not we will have to wait until we can save up enough money that we could get started on it.
3) Money: I know for a fact that this whole specialist thing isn't cheap. We don't have a lot of money saved up due to loans being payed off...mostly my school loans. Due to this...we may just have to wait a few months before I can actually get in. It's kind of depressing that I have to wait for so long but I'm hoping it will work out in the end.
4) I know this sounds mean and all but I HATE the fact that people keep telling me (or other woman) that I (we) should not stress over it and it will happen or just forget about it and it will happen! Do they even know the pain woman go through who have infertility problems. Don't get me wrong...I am family members who tell me this and I don't have this feeling towards them...it's the people that I don't even know who tell me something like this when they think they know everything about me and my life. Oh! Something else that bugs me...I have talked to a lot of mom's out there and most of them keep asking me if I really want the responsible of rising children! How dare them! I've dreamed of having my own children and rising them to be the greatest that they can be. It's one of my dreams that I have waited so long for to be fulfilled.
Overall, I just hope that there is nothing else wrong with me...I think I've had enough bad news for the year...I want to start over and get better results. But life can throw so many curve balls that it's not funny at all. I am hoping that we will be lucky enough to get pregnant next year with out any trouble and what not.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Unexpected Doctor Visit
Today I was called into my doctors office. Which to most people means something bad...in this case, I would have to say the same thing.
A few weeks ago I was having really bad insomnia for a few weeks, so I decided to have the doctor's office order some blood test for my thyroid to see what was going on. That was about 2 weeks ago. I didn't hear from her last week either about the test. Also, the clomid didn't work what-so-ever this round. I didn't even end up having a period (sorry for tmi). So early this week I called in and left my doctor with the report about the clomid and some questions. I figured this week she would call me back because she been really busy recently.
Well, I was right about getting called back. I was told to come in at 12:30 because my doctor wanted to talk to me face to face about everything that was going on. I got to the doctors and waited a little bit due to the fact that I wasn't really schedule to have an appointment today and it was just suppose to be a quick visit. While I was waiting, I was wondering what I would do if I had to be sent to a specialist or even if we can afford one. Well, as soon as I got in with her, she told me some pretty bad news. Let me remind you that I have a hypothyroidism...which means that it doesn't produce enough to support the body. Well, it turns out that it at the lowest level for the test but the other two where perfect. My doctor was so confused.
So we went over everything after I started the Provera and Clomid and she was still confused with everything. She told me that this doesn't usually happens. We than talked about what has been happening in my life to see if there was something there that caused it but I couldn't really think of one. She talked about how I am looking so much better overall and my hormones are going back to normal from this. And what's really weird us out is the fact that I have lost 10 lbs in the last 2 months instead of gaining it back.
What she decided to do was put me back on the Provera to start my cycle and up the dosage of my Clomid to 100mg to see if this helps. In a little over a month I have to go get some more blood test done to see how my body is doing. If it's the same or worst she is going to sent me to a specialist. She doesn't want to wait for another year because we have been trying for so long now. But if they are a little better or great than she will try another round of clomid (that's if I start the next cycle on my own). If not...off to the specialist I go. My doctor thinks that there may be another problems somewhere that we have not discover yet but the only way of know that is if I go. So I'm guessing that in the next 3 months I will be see one no matter what (unless I get pregnant).
I keep wondering why I've been having such a hard time with this and so many other things this year. I've had been given trials to me through out my life but this year has to be the most packed full of them. I just guess I still have a lot of rough edges that need polish off better or something like that. I just hope that I am about to go through all this with a smile or just lots of hope.
A few weeks ago I was having really bad insomnia for a few weeks, so I decided to have the doctor's office order some blood test for my thyroid to see what was going on. That was about 2 weeks ago. I didn't hear from her last week either about the test. Also, the clomid didn't work what-so-ever this round. I didn't even end up having a period (sorry for tmi). So early this week I called in and left my doctor with the report about the clomid and some questions. I figured this week she would call me back because she been really busy recently.
Well, I was right about getting called back. I was told to come in at 12:30 because my doctor wanted to talk to me face to face about everything that was going on. I got to the doctors and waited a little bit due to the fact that I wasn't really schedule to have an appointment today and it was just suppose to be a quick visit. While I was waiting, I was wondering what I would do if I had to be sent to a specialist or even if we can afford one. Well, as soon as I got in with her, she told me some pretty bad news. Let me remind you that I have a hypothyroidism...which means that it doesn't produce enough to support the body. Well, it turns out that it at the lowest level for the test but the other two where perfect. My doctor was so confused.
So we went over everything after I started the Provera and Clomid and she was still confused with everything. She told me that this doesn't usually happens. We than talked about what has been happening in my life to see if there was something there that caused it but I couldn't really think of one. She talked about how I am looking so much better overall and my hormones are going back to normal from this. And what's really weird us out is the fact that I have lost 10 lbs in the last 2 months instead of gaining it back.
What she decided to do was put me back on the Provera to start my cycle and up the dosage of my Clomid to 100mg to see if this helps. In a little over a month I have to go get some more blood test done to see how my body is doing. If it's the same or worst she is going to sent me to a specialist. She doesn't want to wait for another year because we have been trying for so long now. But if they are a little better or great than she will try another round of clomid (that's if I start the next cycle on my own). If not...off to the specialist I go. My doctor thinks that there may be another problems somewhere that we have not discover yet but the only way of know that is if I go. So I'm guessing that in the next 3 months I will be see one no matter what (unless I get pregnant).
I keep wondering why I've been having such a hard time with this and so many other things this year. I've had been given trials to me through out my life but this year has to be the most packed full of them. I just guess I still have a lot of rough edges that need polish off better or something like that. I just hope that I am about to go through all this with a smile or just lots of hope.
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