One Of Those Moments

(This post is just me ranting off some very heavy stress. If you don't want to know about it, go ahead and skip over this post.)

As many of you know, we have been having a very hard time getting pregnant due to my PCOS. Well, today I had one of THOSE moments. I heard about women who have babies and they are twice my size or something along those lines. Then I hear about women how have worst conditions then me like cancer who are still able to get pregnant without any problems. This really makes me blow a fuze.

I love my ward. They are all amazing and I care for them. But today I heard a story about a lady who had a child after she was worked on her thyroid cancer. Right then I just really wanted to scream out loud.  Don't get me wrong. I am happy that family was able to have such a little miracle to help them through some hard times. Blame the hardships for the pain right?

I just don't get why I have to deal with people who say "oh, it must not be your time" or "it will happen eventually, promise" or the most famous one that I keep getting "do you really want to deal with kids or even have them?" That saying comes a lot from people outside of the church and I really want to smack them. Sometime I even get "the Lord doesn't give you more than you can handle"...wrong. That is the only way the Lord can test you. Think about it people.

I really want our children. I had to go thru huge changes in my life on top of a miscarriage and dealing with the hardships of getting pregnant when everyone around me is and some very stupid doctors. It has been over 2 years since I have had the miscarriage. The memory is still very fresh in my head and it will be for a very long time. Let this be a ward to people who don't know the hardships of infertility, don't just assume that things will work out for other and telling them that. Just be there and listen to what they have to say...it will help in more ways than one. Promise.